Jun 24, 2005 00:23
Well things are the same as usual. But I do have some fun sparks in it though hahaha. Some sad ones but I believe I will get over it. I am not working as a waitress and a hostess so when its my time to serve I serve biatches fuck 100 bucks a night is lovely! Correction: Tamekia is not IN a movie she was IN a theatre watching a movie hahhahaha (Mr. and Mrs. Smith) which I have not watched mind you.
It was a whole month of me not seeing Duane and I did the stupidest thing ever....well its not so stupid because I believe I needed to do it in order to see how much he did care for me. But ......ladies and gentlemen I drove my happy ass all the way down to Laredo (next door to major drug war area death zone) to go and see the guy that I truly was crazy bout for one day. I couldnt wait to see him and just idk be in a crazy kind of affection with him for a couple of hours. Lets just day he disapointed me and I felt very alone and stupid to be there all alone in Laredo, TX.
We spent some "quality" time together and it made me notice a lot of bad things he does that can shatter me if I go further with him and at the Party YES dears I partied in Laredo ahahha. I hated that his friends noticed his ungratefulness as well. They were made at him and felt bad for me, which resulted in me getting EXTREMELY drunk (you know where the beer goggles start to come in) Yah. I came to a realization a hard one it took me getting my ass all the way to Laredo to understand that Duane was no prince charming and he never was to any of his past relationships either here are some examples:
- He never spent more than 120 bucks on a gf before
- Not a fun partner for the mall
- TOOOO critical
- Hes like 1 inch taller than me ahhahaha.
- doesnt enjoy buying things
- doesnt like to talk bout his feelings
- doesnt like to talk at all.
- Wants to screw women that are 20 when hes 30
- Not so gentlemen like.
- SOOO many others
But its ok, its a bit hard cuz i attach myself very easily to a person and fear to let go, but that trip makes it a whole lot easier to do so. Um enough of him
My mother is doing great her surgery went by fine. Um im making to mula so its fun not to stress much bout it. Ray called me again so maybe we can build up that relationship. School is like 2 months away an thats nice because then i have my very own apt. with my Tamekia. I want a dog :( my hair is growing and and and my ex IMed me ahhahaha i thought that was hilarious. and i need to go to sleep if Im gana have to be at work like at freakn 6 am in the mornin! OK tootles!
PS: spurs won which is the shit hahaha!