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I'm really upset. A cantor who sometimes does services at my synagogue (and he sang at my Bat Mitzvah) committed suicide yesterday. I'm just totally shocked about this..he has a wife and son...What could have driven him to such desperation that he couldn't think of his actions' impact on his family? It's a scary thought. May he rest in peace..
In regards to my weird-ass life:
my anxiety toward college is manifesting itself in a bazillion ways.
can't sleep, but when I do sleep I have insane dreams, back pain and headaches, locking myself in my room....I feel like a crazy.
Why am I such an idiot??
at least I can get crunk in the club this weekend with some Jews and hookup with cute boys. well, maybe not. But I can count on the crunkness, and at least being flat out on the floor will take my mind off my anxiety.
I just can't stand the waiting! Let the changes just be over already.
It's been a little more than a week since Jason and I broke up. I'm doing okay, but I really miss him. You can't ever stop loving your first love, I guess. Long distance catches up to you, so tread carefully when you love someone 200 miles away.
In regards to my weird-ass life:
my anxiety toward college is manifesting itself in a bazillion ways.
can't sleep, but when I do sleep I have insane dreams, back pain and headaches, locking myself in my room....I feel like a crazy.
Why am I such an idiot??
at least I can get crunk in the club this weekend with some Jews and hookup with cute boys. well, maybe not. But I can count on the crunkness, and at least being flat out on the floor will take my mind off my anxiety.
I just can't stand the waiting! Let the changes just be over already.
It's been a little more than a week since Jason and I broke up. I'm doing okay, but I really miss him. You can't ever stop loving your first love, I guess. Long distance catches up to you, so tread carefully when you love someone 200 miles away.