Im ok as i can be - i wish i could be done saying that.
I just dont think i shold have gone into the house that night. I think i would have been better off simply just wondering. Seeing him like that was the most horrbile way i could have ever seen him....
The glass of soda still had ice in it, and was half full (like that?)
There was a bowl of popcorn on the table.
Green Thermal shirt
The phone
Empty eyes....
Life is unpredictable honestly. I dont think i could have ever completely pictured it to play out this way.
Do you believe that life only thows you for what you are strong enough to handle?
Someone told me that once and im not sure. Where do these phrase like, "What dont kill, can only make me stronger" come from? because thats bull. "What doesnt kill me, makes me crazy" lol.
Everything is finally winding down as far as belongings and property goes. Im trying to be as fair as i can be. Im not the only one that is hurting and its difficult to remember that sometimes.
All those things that used to be difficult for me when Nana died, is sorta coming back to me. Going to the grocery store, driving past Omega. going into Home depot, flat out just seeing an older gentlemen. But i know it wont be like that forever.
Im greatful for all the ppl that are helping me and supporting me. I dont think i would be able to stand on my own two if it werent for them. Some people have a bigger impact on me that they relalize.
Im trying to become a new person, the same old me just better.
I think its getting easier with the time that passes though. Some days the glass is half full and others it half empty.
Today its half full.