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I really wish i could be sleeping right now, but im so congested i cant lay on one side for long without snot dripping out of my nose. I called in today and the day before yesterday. I feel like i havent been to work in a really long time because i am so used to being there allll the time. This is the first time in a long time that i have been knocked down from being sick. My whole body is completely drained. I find myself not wanting to get up to get myself a glass of water, and typically i carry on as if im not even sick. I really hate being sick. It is like the worst thing in the world. I am almost 100% positive i have a sinus infection again. Which really sucks because last time it took me nearly 3 months to get over. I tell ya, when i get sick im sick. My eye feels like its going to jump right out of my skull, but on the bright side atleast its not red.
So my mom isnt coming now. "I dont want you to be upset, but, shain i dont think i am going to be able to come up there". Did she really expect me to be a-ok? I really dont understand her sometimes. Im so upset and disappointed inside i dont even know how to describe it. When she wants to plan a trip here.. i really wish no one would tell me, so atleast when it comes down to the wire, i wont be left standing alone, again. How can she not know i want her here? How could she not know how excited i was to see her. Before i would go to sleep, i would lay there and plan the time she is here and what we are gonna do. I wanted to do so much with her, and thats right out the window. I just want a normal relationship with her, and that doesnt consist of just phone conversations. i Dont even know why im this upset, i saw this coming since december.
Poor kelsey had her knee surgery. It went well, and she is recovering nicely. She has a few stitches that look really good. i cant wait til its healed though..