Guilt, the world, money, dancing, valentine's day
Well, I've been going through this vicious cycle of guilt lately... where i feel guilty for having so much great stuff and not appreciating it... and then i feel bad for myself for feeling guilty, and then i feel guilty for being self-centered. sometimes i just don't know how i'm supposed to act. i think i'm too self-aware, like i pay too much attention to my every thought, and i analyze myself too much.
oh man, today i thought about the universe again, and how big it is, and how unimportant I am. It's kind of fun, but it also gives everything in my life a sense of uselessness.
what's next? oh yeah, money. I babysat for 6.5 hours and i made $60 dollars. I'm rich. I'm just going to enjoy having this money until the guilt sets in. (see paragraph one)
dancing! every year, i'm less afraid to be crazy slash a terrible dancer, at the dance. It's great. Dances always make me cry, in a good way.
valentine's day...
if I joined the amish, everything would just be so much easier. I don't think I'm holy enough, though.
oh man, today i thought about the universe again, and how big it is, and how unimportant I am. It's kind of fun, but it also gives everything in my life a sense of uselessness.
what's next? oh yeah, money. I babysat for 6.5 hours and i made $60 dollars. I'm rich. I'm just going to enjoy having this money until the guilt sets in. (see paragraph one)
dancing! every year, i'm less afraid to be crazy slash a terrible dancer, at the dance. It's great. Dances always make me cry, in a good way.
valentine's day...
if I joined the amish, everything would just be so much easier. I don't think I'm holy enough, though.