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rubbing my eyes.
wishing i could rub away my mind.
my messy. tangled web.
or ideas &dreams. and more than
i can even grasp.
rubbing my eyes.
for escape.
ohhhhhhhhhshit.
sometimes. i whirlwind
into. like OHSHIT THIS IS SOMETHING
i've been autopilot for days.
and i've neglected my mind.
i miss so much. i forget the present
until it's past &miss the past even more.
i need to escape this town.
who the fuck was i trying to fool.
i just wasted months proving myself.
to just say fuck it.
i am worth it.
i am rare. and beautiful.
and people are lucky to have me.
i am so good i can barely contain myself.
i have good intentions. almost always.
oh, i am not stuck on myself.
it's just. you know.
we don't ever give ourself enough credit.
i'll give my chubby little body credit.
i am fat.
YES, FAT.
fat is not a negative word.
it's like saying tall is a negative word.
i am fat &ok with it.
shallow people need not apply.
i feel so bad for girls who care.
and care for the purpose of other people.
vomiting or starving. or obsessing.
is that how you want to waste your life?
i eat TONS of good shit in the company
of some really great people most of my days
and it makes me beyond fulfilled.
if they can only see skin.
how do you expect them to ever dive deeper?
health is personal. believe it.
ugh
what the fuck do i know.
wishing i could rub away my mind.
my messy. tangled web.
or ideas &dreams. and more than
i can even grasp.
rubbing my eyes.
for escape.
ohhhhhhhhhshit.
sometimes. i whirlwind
into. like OHSHIT THIS IS SOMETHING
i've been autopilot for days.
and i've neglected my mind.
i miss so much. i forget the present
until it's past &miss the past even more.
i need to escape this town.
who the fuck was i trying to fool.
i just wasted months proving myself.
to just say fuck it.
i am worth it.
i am rare. and beautiful.
and people are lucky to have me.
i am so good i can barely contain myself.
i have good intentions. almost always.
oh, i am not stuck on myself.
it's just. you know.
we don't ever give ourself enough credit.
i'll give my chubby little body credit.
i am fat.
YES, FAT.
fat is not a negative word.
it's like saying tall is a negative word.
i am fat &ok with it.
shallow people need not apply.
i feel so bad for girls who care.
and care for the purpose of other people.
vomiting or starving. or obsessing.
is that how you want to waste your life?
i eat TONS of good shit in the company
of some really great people most of my days
and it makes me beyond fulfilled.
if they can only see skin.
how do you expect them to ever dive deeper?
health is personal. believe it.
ugh
what the fuck do i know.