its been a whole year???
Only five more days wow.
I can hardly beleive that one. I should explain that. I get bored quickly and easily. I get annoyed when people mess with my schedule. I get nasty when things just aren't going to my perfect plans. I jump at the first signs of something being wrong. I run and hide when things get too scarey. But I've hung around this time. Strange for me...
I've only had one serious boyfriend before my Blue. Things were good but it didn't work out. I'm sad about that sometimes. I'm sad I just wasn't willing to try harder and I wonder why things are different now? Don't get me wrong here. I would never date someone who wasn't a great guy. It has never happened. I get criticized because people just can't understand why I wouldn't want to get out and explore more options and see other guys. Not many people at 21, especially now-a-days keep the same guy or the same girl for more than a few months. Some people like to get out and explore. I am happy as I am. I'm a lucky one who has been able to get a great boyfriend and who had a really awesome ex who is also (as far as i know) happy and doing well and that i can still talk with.
I wonder how things could be different sometimes. I admit it, I think about it but I can't say I would go and change things even if i could or even if i wanted to. I do still wonder. Sometimes i think about it alot not frequently but sometimes. When i think about the past i end up jumping right into the future. i think i will like it , i hope.
end thought.
I can hardly beleive that one. I should explain that. I get bored quickly and easily. I get annoyed when people mess with my schedule. I get nasty when things just aren't going to my perfect plans. I jump at the first signs of something being wrong. I run and hide when things get too scarey. But I've hung around this time. Strange for me...
I've only had one serious boyfriend before my Blue. Things were good but it didn't work out. I'm sad about that sometimes. I'm sad I just wasn't willing to try harder and I wonder why things are different now? Don't get me wrong here. I would never date someone who wasn't a great guy. It has never happened. I get criticized because people just can't understand why I wouldn't want to get out and explore more options and see other guys. Not many people at 21, especially now-a-days keep the same guy or the same girl for more than a few months. Some people like to get out and explore. I am happy as I am. I'm a lucky one who has been able to get a great boyfriend and who had a really awesome ex who is also (as far as i know) happy and doing well and that i can still talk with.
I wonder how things could be different sometimes. I admit it, I think about it but I can't say I would go and change things even if i could or even if i wanted to. I do still wonder. Sometimes i think about it alot not frequently but sometimes. When i think about the past i end up jumping right into the future. i think i will like it , i hope.
end thought.