Chaos like cake
I'm working on taking a deep breath and letting go-
I'm looking for a new job. Life is chaotic, messy and delicious, just how I like it. I'm trying to plan out as much as I can. I don't really think I can plan too much out though. I tried that once. It didn't work. I'm happier as a result. I can have goals and direct and things that I want- but plans? That's just not how I live. Japan expects plans, considering so children's paths in life are determined by which kindergarten they attend- the government expects plans- society expects I have plans because I have a husband and a daughter. I have ideas, passions, wants but no plans.
I do believe in destiny and fate and kismet and inspired actions and focusing on what I want and letting it find me. I'm trying to figure out the balance of working toward what I want and letting it find me. I want to try enough so I comes in a timely manner but I don't want to try so hard that I push amazing opportunities aside.
Life is messy and I love it. Maybe it is my job to help those around me to embrace the chaos of life.
Caffeine should probably be avoided right now.
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