Shame (catch-up topic)
I am weak.
I know I am weak, not in my powers, but in my heart. I learned it so very well nine years ago… And keep learning it now, when I can’t kill him.
Once I would have been fine with that. Once, I saw no reason to kill. I guess some part of me still doesn’t - and he knows it. And he keeps calling to it, exploiting it. And I keep leaving undone what I should have done long ago. What I could have done long ago, if I truly wanted it.
The weak part of me didn’t. It still doesn’t, no matter what he did to me. What he did to Hokuto. What he keeps doing as an Angel. He still has control over me, and I am ashamed of it.
I know I am weak, not in my powers, but in my heart. I learned it so very well nine years ago… And keep learning it now, when I can’t kill him.
Once I would have been fine with that. Once, I saw no reason to kill. I guess some part of me still doesn’t - and he knows it. And he keeps calling to it, exploiting it. And I keep leaving undone what I should have done long ago. What I could have done long ago, if I truly wanted it.
The weak part of me didn’t. It still doesn’t, no matter what he did to me. What he did to Hokuto. What he keeps doing as an Angel. He still has control over me, and I am ashamed of it.