Lalala.
I was walking home, but then I decided to stop in a new cafe and check it out and have a cup of tea. This was clearly a winning decision because they are playing "Everyday People" by Arrested Development!
AW SHIT AS I WAS TYPING THIS THEY TURNED IT OFF AND STARTED PLAYING SOMETHING ELSE.
Don't you understand that I was reliving my ~youth~?
I totally had that CD. I wonder where it is now.
Things I'm researching now:
~Peacebuilding efforts in Bosnia & Herzegovina. It's kind of funny that except when I did a project on Roma access to public health in Central and Eastern Europe, I've never done anything regarding the Balkans in grad school. I've just been a little paranoid that I would get pigeonholed as an Eastern Europe person, which I don't necessarily want to be. But I do want to look at this before I graduate, because it's an issue that is close to my heart.
~The narcotics trade through West Africa. Within just the last few years, a new drug route has opened up from South America to Europe, via West Africa. I don't really know much about it. But I will!
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Apparently I'm very condescending and a bitch. IDK. I'm sorry if I come across as condescending, I don't think I'm smrter than other people. (In fact, I think I'm dumber than most people at lots of stuff...and I have the stats grades to prove it.) I do think I'm a little older than most people in fandom and sometimes I think I can offer up some life experiences. If you don't want to hear it, tell me to stfu. I won't be offended.
As for being a bitch...I think I'm usually pretty nice, but at the same time, I'm pretty blunt, and I can be confrontational if you piss me off. So I can see how that could be interpreted as being bitchy. If that turns you off, it's okay with me. I don't expect to be BFF with everyone, you know?
When I was younger, I was really shy and easily cowed. This tactic never got me anywhere in life, and eventually I developed a much more assertive personality. Now I'm being accused of being too aggressive and holier-than-thou about my opinions. Hm. This is really interesting, because I don't see myself that way. I feel like I am actually really willing to listen to other people's opinions and enjoy discussing differing points of view, but if people really see me as aggressive and confrontational, maybe they're not willing to offer them up and challenge me?
I don't know. Tell me what you think. Do I come across as bitchy? I particularly ask my flist, because they can see my flocked posts, which is about half of my postings. (After I read this, I went back to see if maybe there was a pattern of bitchiness in my unflocked posts, but I don't see it.)
This is all very self-absorbed, but I really am mildly surprised that people see me this way because...well, it is kind of how I see myself, but magnified. Maybe it's the online medium.
No, I'm not going to change my personality to suit some nonnies, but if I'm expressing myself in a way that has a poor reflection on me, I'd want to know that.
ETA: Okay, now one of the anons is saying that I said something that I did not say. This bothers me. I don't mind if you don't like me (well, obviously, no one likes being disliked, but I'm not as thin-skinned as all that), but saying something factually incorrect about me is irritating. (FWIW, I don't necessarily think it's intentional, I think the nonnie is probably making a genuine mistake.) So tempted to deanon and correct them.
ETA #2: Some other nonnies took care of it for me, nvm.
AW SHIT AS I WAS TYPING THIS THEY TURNED IT OFF AND STARTED PLAYING SOMETHING ELSE.
Don't you understand that I was reliving my ~youth~?
I totally had that CD. I wonder where it is now.
Things I'm researching now:
~Peacebuilding efforts in Bosnia & Herzegovina. It's kind of funny that except when I did a project on Roma access to public health in Central and Eastern Europe, I've never done anything regarding the Balkans in grad school. I've just been a little paranoid that I would get pigeonholed as an Eastern Europe person, which I don't necessarily want to be. But I do want to look at this before I graduate, because it's an issue that is close to my heart.
~The narcotics trade through West Africa. Within just the last few years, a new drug route has opened up from South America to Europe, via West Africa. I don't really know much about it. But I will!
~~~
Apparently I'm very condescending and a bitch. IDK. I'm sorry if I come across as condescending, I don't think I'm smrter than other people. (In fact, I think I'm dumber than most people at lots of stuff...and I have the stats grades to prove it.) I do think I'm a little older than most people in fandom and sometimes I think I can offer up some life experiences. If you don't want to hear it, tell me to stfu. I won't be offended.
As for being a bitch...I think I'm usually pretty nice, but at the same time, I'm pretty blunt, and I can be confrontational if you piss me off. So I can see how that could be interpreted as being bitchy. If that turns you off, it's okay with me. I don't expect to be BFF with everyone, you know?
When I was younger, I was really shy and easily cowed. This tactic never got me anywhere in life, and eventually I developed a much more assertive personality. Now I'm being accused of being too aggressive and holier-than-thou about my opinions. Hm. This is really interesting, because I don't see myself that way. I feel like I am actually really willing to listen to other people's opinions and enjoy discussing differing points of view, but if people really see me as aggressive and confrontational, maybe they're not willing to offer them up and challenge me?
I don't know. Tell me what you think. Do I come across as bitchy? I particularly ask my flist, because they can see my flocked posts, which is about half of my postings. (After I read this, I went back to see if maybe there was a pattern of bitchiness in my unflocked posts, but I don't see it.)
This is all very self-absorbed, but I really am mildly surprised that people see me this way because...well, it is kind of how I see myself, but magnified. Maybe it's the online medium.
No, I'm not going to change my personality to suit some nonnies, but if I'm expressing myself in a way that has a poor reflection on me, I'd want to know that.
ETA: Okay, now one of the anons is saying that I said something that I did not say. This bothers me. I don't mind if you don't like me (well, obviously, no one likes being disliked, but I'm not as thin-skinned as all that), but saying something factually incorrect about me is irritating. (FWIW, I don't necessarily think it's intentional, I think the nonnie is probably making a genuine mistake.) So tempted to deanon and correct them.
ETA #2: Some other nonnies took care of it for me, nvm.