and girls suck. I type this as I listen to four horseman by metallica. What a perfect song. I think its funny that Valerie finds the same music I find months before but when I show her music she doesn't like it, hmm. Lol cuz I swear I shown her day n nite last time I was over at her house with alex ( Read more... )

You can tell the excitement is in the air. I have summer break for one week until school starts back again, and possibly work. There's noone to hang with either and I'm stuck doing lots of garden work, i shoveled 25 cubic feet of dirt yesterday it should have taken 3 or 4 hours ended up taking over 6 because of all the stone, roots, and vines in ( Read more... )

I drew on that old feeling that thought, and I am consumed with hate anger a weird sense of destruction. And I need reassurance but even that helps draw no restraint from inside me. I am so competitive that even a person distant and withdrawn from me can make me feel like I need to be better. The more I am aware of my various imperfections the more ( Read more... )