who do you think?!...

[12hazelitskeyez]

is it wrong for me to miss him? 
feeling the way that i do: 
horrible, let down, let go of, 
forgotten, unimportant: to anyone
for anything...[you]?  
feelings, emotions high, 
raging as a storm, 
angst rising inside
of me. 
me
why...me? why? 
why do i deserve this? 
i don't. 
"it's not fair to you," you say. 
neither was this...
it's worse this way! 
how could i understand you?
i barely understand me! 
but thank you; 
now i see...
how much this means
how much i mean. 
how pitiful do i sound, 
here, feeling sorry for myself? 
do i care? 
how could you, how could i ask that?! 
caring...
i care for you...of course i do.

i guess that i'm not trendy:
when showing you the way that i feel is just so yesterday,   
and expressing my emotions is no longer on "Relationship's" runway; 
when hoping that you feel the same is not considered cool, 
and having expectations goes against all these new rules; 
when wanting what i thought you did is making you uptight, 
and being who i am: myself, is simply just not right.

oh, i forgot
Mr. "that's not my style" 
but what about my style