Life in itself.
Im at one of the lowest points so far in my life. Im completely stressed out about school, church, God, just everything. School is ok but I really dont know anyone that well. Im with Tyler a lot which is amazing. I guess I will just have to get use to school. Early lastnight was nice. I was with Elle and Ashley. We went to Barnes and Noble, Target, and Red Lobster but when I got home I was completely dragged down to the point of not knowing what is true in life. Questioning whether or not this God that I have believed in since I can remember is really true. Wondering if I just crawled in a hole--would anyone miss me? Or care? Would it be better?
Jerome, one of my friends from California told me that Zacharie- one of my close friends and Misti who has been there for me for awhile and I could come to for anything which is her husband had died. He was the nicest person I had ever known. I just sat there staring at his picture. I just couldnt get up and tears started coming. And I couldnt help it. Why God? Why do you allow good people to leave us? And leave the bad here? Why does everything always have to happen for the worse? He was so young. I just really havent been able to see the positive since lastnight. I cant stop thinking about him. I feel like my lungs are coming up my throat and with each minute my strain to breathe becomes harder. I just wish I could take my life. I mean when I think about it, I havent really changed anyones life or done anything of any great significance. Ill probably regret this post after I push the update button but I really dont care.
Also--to everyone who is my friend, Im sorry I havent been commenting. I will soon. Dont take me off your list please.
Jerome, one of my friends from California told me that Zacharie- one of my close friends and Misti who has been there for me for awhile and I could come to for anything which is her husband had died. He was the nicest person I had ever known. I just sat there staring at his picture. I just couldnt get up and tears started coming. And I couldnt help it. Why God? Why do you allow good people to leave us? And leave the bad here? Why does everything always have to happen for the worse? He was so young. I just really havent been able to see the positive since lastnight. I cant stop thinking about him. I feel like my lungs are coming up my throat and with each minute my strain to breathe becomes harder. I just wish I could take my life. I mean when I think about it, I havent really changed anyones life or done anything of any great significance. Ill probably regret this post after I push the update button but I really dont care.
Also--to everyone who is my friend, Im sorry I havent been commenting. I will soon. Dont take me off your list please.