and.there's.never.any.place.for.someone.like.me.to.be.totally.happy.
i wish i could stop thinking for two seconds. i have nooo clue what i want to do with my life or even next week. i want to save the world, but i don't even think i can save a small town if my life depended on it. oh well...my aunt, uncle and baby cousins are coming to visit tomorrow. i'm so excited to see people who love me. perhaps we'll even go out to eat...ah yes. i miss home, and sometimes i think of not sticking it out here for the next two years. some people love their schools, and i guess i've just never been really happy here. but then i don't think it's the location that gets me. if i was home, it would be really bad i think, because nothing would be the same. so i'm going to stay and do what i have to do...i guess. my classes are keeping me really busy, and i have two jobs, and i'm in this volunteering organization and big brothers/big sisters, and i've been working out about five days a week...so i'm just going to do all that...and it's fine. this year is real different from all the other years. i have a feeling that it'll be more difficult than the rest. i guess we'll see.