Only time can tell
I am up finishing my homework, or rather desperately wishing for someone to talk to. I guess loneliness is a common quality all people share regardless if they have loved ones in their life or not. I seem to get very sentimental and thoughtful as the hours of the night pass. I couldn't sleep at all last nite, tossing and turning. yet im not at all tired tonight. Too much on my mind i guess. How can one be so happy with their life but yet feel like something still isn't quite right? Remembering certain things and how i always believed that when something is too good to be true it usually is. So one makes choices based on what they can trust and what they know. I'm not a risk taker. there are very few moments in my life when i said the hell with it and i did what i wanted to do regardless of what anyone did or thought or felt. and those people who were there im sure won't forget either. How some people hurt others on a daily bases and not care at all and others cant even swat at a bee for fear of hurting it? so the choices that are made are ones that will help others and hurt the least in not any. as far as what i want, that is the question i can never seem to answer. what will make me happy? why am i not happy? if i change something will i than be happy? what if im not? its like happiness for me is on a scale where i can be happy, less happy, or more happy. caring about everything is exhausting but not caring at all is not my nature. I don't know when i started writing so vaguely but i guess its not important for others to know what i am talking about rather just get the thoughts out of my hand. I mean you can only annoy your friends with the same shit so much right?