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hey there...long time no see
yea...things have been weird lately and i havent had much time to sit down and type anything meaningful...just the ordinary bullshit that goes on my myspace page. i have been working on the thing that was originaly for this...its still far from done but im a lot closer. now that i know a few people read this im not sure that i want anyone to really read it. people see me a sertain way and this explains a lot about myself that i dont think most people would really understand. no one really knows where ive come from, what ive gone through. well W did...but only b/c she made me talk to her about all that sort of things.
update time i guess then
i wrecked my car a few days ago...you should already know about this anyways. that car was freedom to me. i dont think anyone really understanding that. that was my first car..it was what finaly let me get away from everyone and everything any time i needed. and now i have nothing...at least for the next few days. she was my baby...i had more memories in that car then i can even type out right now. but like everyone is saying...cars can be replaced...that was more than a car to me. and im having to go through a lot of shit to get even a rental out of her insurance.
i saw C a while back...she stopped by while she was out and about. i was having a really shit day and she made my night a lot better even though she didnt stay that long. it was nice to see her again...its always nice to see her. she always seems to make me smile...i see why someone else told her that. okay so other than she went to kiss my cheek and i actualy kissed her, nothing aquard happened...but im gonna try and not thing about her right now...making me sad.
ummmmmmm...i have a prospect of a new job...not 100% that im gonna be able to do it, or even get it, but anything is better than the way my boss is treating me right now. im gonna laugh uber hard if she tries to fire me b/c i didnt come in today. oh im sorry I DONT HAVE A CAR AND ITS NOT MY FAULT! stupid bitch...
oh...i finaly saw a pic of W new b/f...-snickers- im just glad that shes happy. something that i couldnt do for her. ive been meaning to talk to her, but thats kinda hard for some reason. i had a dream about it and ended up waking up almost crying. i understand that she has every reason to hate me, but she did want to be friends. the dream just kinda let me know that its not the right time for me. i wasnt upset about not having her...it was that her new b/f and her where being total bitches to me for no reason. anyways...im glad she is happy and i only wish her the best of luck.
i hate for emo music is fading...but i can only listen to really old emo...that and really punky emo. like NOFX and MxPx songs that are all sappy. anyways i figured out that country was emo way before so it doesnt matter. :) i think its just b/c ive been really depressed lately that ive been able to stand it. its like when it rains it fucking pours on me. people keep telling me that its gonna stop...but it hasnt. its been a constand down pour starting on friday. ive even brought my bad luck upon other people. but im gonna try and have a possative attitude right now. ive been sitting at home...all day...watching tv and sitting on the comp and i seriously feel like hurting myself...so im not gonna be sad right now.
life is passing me by and im on the side of the road with a totaled car and no phone and no way home...see its easy to be emo! lol anyways...ive been typing all freaking day and i think im gonna have carpultunnle(sp) by the time im 25....bah!
i need to go wash my clothes...in hopes that i might have a ride to work tomorrow...gotta be a bum.
yea...things have been weird lately and i havent had much time to sit down and type anything meaningful...just the ordinary bullshit that goes on my myspace page. i have been working on the thing that was originaly for this...its still far from done but im a lot closer. now that i know a few people read this im not sure that i want anyone to really read it. people see me a sertain way and this explains a lot about myself that i dont think most people would really understand. no one really knows where ive come from, what ive gone through. well W did...but only b/c she made me talk to her about all that sort of things.
update time i guess then
i wrecked my car a few days ago...you should already know about this anyways. that car was freedom to me. i dont think anyone really understanding that. that was my first car..it was what finaly let me get away from everyone and everything any time i needed. and now i have nothing...at least for the next few days. she was my baby...i had more memories in that car then i can even type out right now. but like everyone is saying...cars can be replaced...that was more than a car to me. and im having to go through a lot of shit to get even a rental out of her insurance.
i saw C a while back...she stopped by while she was out and about. i was having a really shit day and she made my night a lot better even though she didnt stay that long. it was nice to see her again...its always nice to see her. she always seems to make me smile...i see why someone else told her that. okay so other than she went to kiss my cheek and i actualy kissed her, nothing aquard happened...but im gonna try and not thing about her right now...making me sad.
ummmmmmm...i have a prospect of a new job...not 100% that im gonna be able to do it, or even get it, but anything is better than the way my boss is treating me right now. im gonna laugh uber hard if she tries to fire me b/c i didnt come in today. oh im sorry I DONT HAVE A CAR AND ITS NOT MY FAULT! stupid bitch...
oh...i finaly saw a pic of W new b/f...-snickers- im just glad that shes happy. something that i couldnt do for her. ive been meaning to talk to her, but thats kinda hard for some reason. i had a dream about it and ended up waking up almost crying. i understand that she has every reason to hate me, but she did want to be friends. the dream just kinda let me know that its not the right time for me. i wasnt upset about not having her...it was that her new b/f and her where being total bitches to me for no reason. anyways...im glad she is happy and i only wish her the best of luck.
i hate for emo music is fading...but i can only listen to really old emo...that and really punky emo. like NOFX and MxPx songs that are all sappy. anyways i figured out that country was emo way before so it doesnt matter. :) i think its just b/c ive been really depressed lately that ive been able to stand it. its like when it rains it fucking pours on me. people keep telling me that its gonna stop...but it hasnt. its been a constand down pour starting on friday. ive even brought my bad luck upon other people. but im gonna try and have a possative attitude right now. ive been sitting at home...all day...watching tv and sitting on the comp and i seriously feel like hurting myself...so im not gonna be sad right now.
life is passing me by and im on the side of the road with a totaled car and no phone and no way home...see its easy to be emo! lol anyways...ive been typing all freaking day and i think im gonna have carpultunnle(sp) by the time im 25....bah!
i need to go wash my clothes...in hopes that i might have a ride to work tomorrow...gotta be a bum.