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Had some really fucked up dreams last night... I kept waking up crying... i dont really remember them but rob was there and lacey... and lacey shot rob... and then i shot her... and i walked down the street like nothing happend just like the day rob died. I just picked up my bag and walked away. I walked all the way to the old brockton house and there were lots of people there... mark, and the daves, and robs brother, and jesse and a few of the boys, and Lots of people that I dont remember or know... They were all just sitting there... and I walked in and htey all looked at me and jesse and the boys jumped on me and started beating the shit out of me and everyone just sat there and was like yeah give that bitch what she deserves then i felt like something was running down my back, I was bleeding everywhere, mark had sliced my back open along my whole spine. Dave Bl. started singing sigur rose... and Dave Br. started freaking out and trying to pull everyone off of me... tory got mad that he interfered and she took off her shoe and put it threw his head... the other people walked out the back door into the back yard and Bear was out there, one of my old neighbors german shepards, pretty dog, i liked him a lot, so he chased them and they ran away somewhere then he came into the house and started biting everyone and pulling htem off of me and he grabbed me by the arm and drug me out of the house and back to rob and lacey. Lacey was standing over rob her body coverd in blood just looking at him slowly crying. she looked at me and said "I didnt mean to kill him, i was aiming for you, why did i kill HIM? You were the one that was supoused to die, why did i have to kill him...?" Then Bear disapeard... I just laid there on the ground bleeding from the spine and then lacey colapsed next to me I think I shot her in the shoulder area... and we layed there together and then she died and the ambulance came and I was put into it and the next thing i remember is seeing tv and it was a crappy news brodcast all cloudy and shaken and shit and it was of the scene and i started crying... and then i woke up and I was crying and there was blood all over my arms and my hands and I freaked out and then I realized my nose was bleeding and I just sat there and cried. It was 4am, I wanted to talk to someone, but I wasnt going to call anyone at 4, maybe at 3, but i dont call people at 4 cuz i'm odd like that...
So my night sucked, I spent most of it with crazy dreams like that or crying my ass off... one time I got up and packed all my shit and was going to leave, but i didnt know where the fuck to go... no car... i'd be on foot, I have no place to sleep if I'm on foot and all that shit... I thought of going to attleboro and seeing jesse, but i didnt feel like walking htat far at the moment... whatever, Milo woke me up today im not happy with that at all... 915 he woke me up its now 1030 and i cant fall back to sleep hes in his crate probably crying to come out, back ot bed i try to go...
So my night sucked, I spent most of it with crazy dreams like that or crying my ass off... one time I got up and packed all my shit and was going to leave, but i didnt know where the fuck to go... no car... i'd be on foot, I have no place to sleep if I'm on foot and all that shit... I thought of going to attleboro and seeing jesse, but i didnt feel like walking htat far at the moment... whatever, Milo woke me up today im not happy with that at all... 915 he woke me up its now 1030 and i cant fall back to sleep hes in his crate probably crying to come out, back ot bed i try to go...