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Everything has been going well for me in the past 6
months. Once I started getting Remicade everything got better and I
could start enjoying myself again. Obviously a whole lot has changed in
the past year. It feels like more than usually goes by in a year but
maybe it's just the finality of 4 years ending that is causing that.
Right now I'm doing so many of the things I've wanted to. I talk and hang out with people that I've always wanted to talk to, I'm a part of things that used to seem impossible to infiltrate. There arn't many things or people that I'm afraid to get invovled with. This summer I've done a lot of hanging out at vegan bbq's Wednesdays at Highland Ave.
I'm not uncomfortable talking to people I knew from SARO or just around and now can consider friends. It makes me happy whenever someone knows my name and what I stand. I don't feel like I'm someone people forget about. I do feel like I have a family beyond bloodlines. People who notice if I am gone, want to know what I think and will look me in the eye. I feel very accomplished when I think about the ska scene.
The first time I did the door was last April at Salt City. Now I talk to Danny often and play a big role in helping him organize shows. I've made connections with many new people and learned a lot about the inner workings of music scenes.
It doesn't hurt so much when people arn't as close as I want them to be because I have other things to fall back on. I still get mad that I don't see people as often as I'd like but I'm working on being sympathetic to their choices.
I even have a guy in my life right now. It's not an ideal situation but it makes me happy. I've gotten so far and now I can focus on some self maintainence things. Learning to accept the way some people conduct themselves and how to talk to people without upsetting them. I am very blunt, I do say what I think is right. But it's important to make personal connections and work with people to have them understand what you want to say.
So I'm happy. I'm excited for college. My orginal roomate and my new one are nice so at least I have two connections. Orientation went well and I'm just looking forward to a whole new situation. I just really hope to find new friends for shows and for Matt Cole to stay in touch. Hopefully I'll go to my first show the day after moving in and get involved right off the bat.
That about sums up everything I wanted to say, any questions?
Right now I'm doing so many of the things I've wanted to. I talk and hang out with people that I've always wanted to talk to, I'm a part of things that used to seem impossible to infiltrate. There arn't many things or people that I'm afraid to get invovled with. This summer I've done a lot of hanging out at vegan bbq's Wednesdays at Highland Ave.
I'm not uncomfortable talking to people I knew from SARO or just around and now can consider friends. It makes me happy whenever someone knows my name and what I stand. I don't feel like I'm someone people forget about. I do feel like I have a family beyond bloodlines. People who notice if I am gone, want to know what I think and will look me in the eye. I feel very accomplished when I think about the ska scene.
The first time I did the door was last April at Salt City. Now I talk to Danny often and play a big role in helping him organize shows. I've made connections with many new people and learned a lot about the inner workings of music scenes.
It doesn't hurt so much when people arn't as close as I want them to be because I have other things to fall back on. I still get mad that I don't see people as often as I'd like but I'm working on being sympathetic to their choices.
I even have a guy in my life right now. It's not an ideal situation but it makes me happy. I've gotten so far and now I can focus on some self maintainence things. Learning to accept the way some people conduct themselves and how to talk to people without upsetting them. I am very blunt, I do say what I think is right. But it's important to make personal connections and work with people to have them understand what you want to say.
So I'm happy. I'm excited for college. My orginal roomate and my new one are nice so at least I have two connections. Orientation went well and I'm just looking forward to a whole new situation. I just really hope to find new friends for shows and for Matt Cole to stay in touch. Hopefully I'll go to my first show the day after moving in and get involved right off the bat.
That about sums up everything I wanted to say, any questions?