*she stole everything your heart desired* - the only line i remember from the cd in his car...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!
today was soooo amazing!! i love my birthday this year. all the people i care about said happy birthday too me and thats all that matters. anyone who didnt, fuck you and i dont care because i dont care about you! the only boy (that i like) who cared to say happy birthday to me was mike! and he was the best part of my day. this is what happened, and thank you krystal for your birthday gift!
me and krystal were at the soda machine and mike was in back of the line and krystals like "turn around" and shes like "happy birthday" and im like thanks, because i figured she was joking around being like "oh there he is, you saw him thats my gift" but no. she goes up to him and shes like "hi" and hes like "hey" and she goes" guess what" and hes like "what?" and she points to me and goes "its her birthday today" and hes like "really?" and im like "yea" but i was taking a sip of my iced tea and hes like "oh, happy birthday!" and then he pushed my bottle up and i started choking on the iced tea and he threw a fry at me! lol. so after i finished choking i was like
"well thank you, for the happy birthday and for nearly killing me" and hes like "your welcome". so i start to walk away and im like, no, im asking him to take me home today, its my birthday and it would make my day. so i turned around and said "hey, do you think you could give me a ride to claires today?" and hes like "sure! just meet me outside by my car after school" and im like "thank you". so then at the end of the day i was about to go to his car with claire and i saw him comming, so i just walked with him to his car and he kept hitting me with this black thing. then the girl who usually comes with us wasnt there today so i got to sit in the front seat!!!!!!! so we talked about a bunch of stuff on the way to claires and i wanted to ask him to come to my party sunday but i didnt. then when we stopped at a light, he hit me in the chest and under my chin and i started "punching" (lightly tapping his arm with my fist, jokeingly like we always do) him and we talked about the 311 concert comming up in julyand how we wanna go and stuff and im gonna try and see if i can get him to take me and claire to it. then when we got to claires she got out and i hugged him and when i did it seemed like he went to kiss me but i didnt realize it until it was too late, so he just hugged me back and i said "thank you" and hes like "no problem, anytime! happy birthday!" and i got out of the car and he waved and left. i still feel him in my arms!! hes so...thick, i just was in a full embrace and my arms were all around him and it was greta, for the frist time in a long time, scince that september night, everything was good again!! he makes everything better for me, i dont ever want to lose him, ever! i wrapped my arms around him and he hugged me back, a real hug, i havent had a hug like that from a guy in so long, almost ever. im in love with him nd i cant stop, i dont wanna stop. i feel something when im with him and whatever it is, its still there after 3 years. were drawn to eachother by something. we listened to this really good cd in the car, i wanna know what it is, maybe ill ask tomorrow...i just wanna hold him again, i need his arms around me. that hug gave me the feeling ive been looking for since march. thats feeling of just being held and nothing else. and i KNOW that he doesnt just do that with everyone, cause ive seen him with that girl in the front n he doesnt ever do that to her, only me, im special, and i feel that way when im with him. i love to fdeel that way, i need to feel that way. i am finally truely happy, for the first time since my grandfather was in the hospital last year. but why do some people (brilyn) have to take this from me. im always there for both of them, and bri doesnt even say happy birthday, and i told kate how mad i was at him for it and she goes and tells him...talk about shitty...oh well, tomorrow is more mike, so until then ill think about him nd feel that embrace and be happy until tomorrow when i see him and feel perfect, hes perfect and when im with him, im perfect too, for thouse 10 mins, i was perfect, and we were infinate, i now know what charlie (from perks) ment by "and in that moment we were infinate" because i was, and he was, and we were, and we both felt it, and it was beautiful.