Oct 17, 2005 18:20
so i fucked up. badly. and the only thing i can do is apologize. which i will, next time i see him. which might not be for awhile because of other issues.
but for those of you that know, and feel compelled to tell everyone ELSE about it. STOP. it is NOT your business, it never was, unless i told you DIRECTLY... dont talk about it.
Craig L, Sarah H, Derek, Amber, and Brittany T are the only people i told directly. and i'd appreciate it if you didn't talk about it with anyone other than the people involved.
it is NOT YOUR PLACE to punish me. (not that any of you have- but other people that know about it, have attempted to punish me)
i can punish myself. and that is what im doing. you don't need to do it too.
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i am sick of hiding it all. and i wish you knew me. but you can't, can you? CAN YOU?
there's a monster inside
that's visible in my eyes
that burns through my smile
that's laughing all the while
as it tears me down
there's a muderder inside
that's visible in my eyes
that cuts through my smile
that's killing all the while
as i tear me down