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woohoo! i just got back from Dredz. Kyle and i almost fell asleep on the couch. i think i am blinded from the black lights. anyways. apparently if you watch Wizard of Oz and play Pink Floyd-Darkside of The Moon, the two match up at random parts. and they do! it's freaky!
anyways. i dont think Jag is pissed at me anymore. which is always good. but he told me something tonight that i am kinda pissed about.
BUT IT DOESNT REALLY MATTER!! because i have finally found the beauty in life! i seriously love being me. lol. i love being me so much that i am on the LJ twice in one day! (okay that really doesnt mean anything- about the LJ i mean). i dont get it. i dont understand why i am so insanely like this. i know that it is not Kyle, because i was happy before that. i know this isnt me being bestfriends with Joey again, because i was ahppy before that.
i think it started that Saturday night at Dredz, when i realized things could be simple. and now i look at everything with simplicity.
like wearing fairy wings around my house, that is simple entertainment. but it keeps me happy and alive. like eating skittles, or starburts. i like bright colors and glow sticks.
this is so random. i sound like im on drugs. but im not. for the first time, i dont need them. i haven't drank in a really long time either, and i dont care. i am intoxicated on life. everything seems to be falling into place, however haphazardly. and i feel raw and unclean. and i like it. i accept it.
i am back to the girl i was, who wouldnt let anyone get in her way. i am back to blowing people out of the fucking water. but dont get me wrong. i will help you if you bleed. but there are some warriors who have made me bleed my own blood (lol. dodgeball moment), and i can do nothing but to watch the crimson flow, but wounds heal. and i am lucky, and mine have not festered. but i get even, and your blood becomes my serenity.
hahaha.
"listen to your heart
when he's calling for you
listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do
i dont know where you're goin
and i dont know why
listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye"
i love that song. it is supposed to be about love. but to me, it is about life. and not letting it slip away.
life is a good thing and everyone should live it to the fullest.
peace, love, and rock n.. er... japanese hip-hop
(lovelovexx)
LaURaH D.
anyways. i dont think Jag is pissed at me anymore. which is always good. but he told me something tonight that i am kinda pissed about.
BUT IT DOESNT REALLY MATTER!! because i have finally found the beauty in life! i seriously love being me. lol. i love being me so much that i am on the LJ twice in one day! (okay that really doesnt mean anything- about the LJ i mean). i dont get it. i dont understand why i am so insanely like this. i know that it is not Kyle, because i was happy before that. i know this isnt me being bestfriends with Joey again, because i was ahppy before that.
i think it started that Saturday night at Dredz, when i realized things could be simple. and now i look at everything with simplicity.
like wearing fairy wings around my house, that is simple entertainment. but it keeps me happy and alive. like eating skittles, or starburts. i like bright colors and glow sticks.
this is so random. i sound like im on drugs. but im not. for the first time, i dont need them. i haven't drank in a really long time either, and i dont care. i am intoxicated on life. everything seems to be falling into place, however haphazardly. and i feel raw and unclean. and i like it. i accept it.
i am back to the girl i was, who wouldnt let anyone get in her way. i am back to blowing people out of the fucking water. but dont get me wrong. i will help you if you bleed. but there are some warriors who have made me bleed my own blood (lol. dodgeball moment), and i can do nothing but to watch the crimson flow, but wounds heal. and i am lucky, and mine have not festered. but i get even, and your blood becomes my serenity.
hahaha.
"listen to your heart
when he's calling for you
listen to your heart
there's nothing else you can do
i dont know where you're goin
and i dont know why
listen to your heart
before you tell him goodbye"
i love that song. it is supposed to be about love. but to me, it is about life. and not letting it slip away.
life is a good thing and everyone should live it to the fullest.
peace, love, and rock n.. er... japanese hip-hop
(lovelovexx)
LaURaH D.