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[0beamy0]

i'm sick of it. i'm sick of this whole ordeal. i'm sick of people being sad and angry. i'm sick of hurting people even though i really try not to. i'm sick of people telling me i'm mind-gamey and confusing. i'm sick of people trying to figure me out. i'm sick of people WANTING to figure me out. I DON'T WANT YOU TO FIGURE ME OUT, GODDAMNIT, IF I DID

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[g_a_r_a]

You want med to back off? Well fine. fuck it. Im sick.

You keep asking me what the point is of dating. You keep saying other things ae of more importance. you keep ssaying you want to be a "free bird".

Laurah the sad truth you will some day realize is that none of us can be free birds. You dont want to be tied down because of someone, yet you are already tied down, and have been since the moment you were born.

Life ties us all down. We are always stuck in a systamatic rutine. Now it is school, after school its a job, after that its constantly shitting all over ourselves while our children change our depends.

So what is the point to any of it? Really what will it amount to? Like ive been telling you we must live life now. We cant waist away all our lives for the future, because the future will only be the same.

I dont know what to do. If i back away im told im avoiding, if i try to help im only pissing people off.

[g_a_r_a]

See? The above is thinking with your mind. If you only think with your mind than there is no god so therefore there is no point in living. It will only be futile in the end.

However if you think with your heart than there is a reason because with faith you can believe that this life isnt all there is.

That is just one example of how your mind will lie. If you only follow what your mind says you will miss out on a whole life of things, just because you think they are irrational

[zebadayus]

You can't just tell people not to try to figure you out. It's not going to happen, no matter how much you wish it.

I want to be your friend, but it seems you're going to be making that hard. Why? WHY don't you want people to figure you out, huh? WHY won't you let people know you?

If you continue like that, you'll end up with only loneliness Laurah. I know you know that. You've GOT to let people in.

But, fine. If you really don't want to open up, I'll be patient. We can't make you unless you want to. I'll respect that. I'll be an open ear for you when you're ready.

[zebadayus]

And whatever has happened to you in the past, LET GO. I know better than anyone that you can't hold on to things that have happened. You have to move on. You have to make a new life. You want to be free? Then quit restraining yourself.

I'm sorry about your friend. I truly am. But you have other friends here, and you have to think of them too.

[0beamy0]

so now i can't believe in God?

[0beamy0]

but thanks guys anyways. i love you