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i just want to know why it's so hard to find a decent guy to date. why?!?! i mean i know i'm picky, but good lord. i'm not talking about my perfect match and marriage and all that crap, i mean just like one decent guy who is actually worth dating and will actually appreciate me. and someone that i'm attracted to; i'm not just going to throw myself at the first person who can stand to spend time with me for the sake of dating.
and i'm sorry but i think i'm a pretty cool kid. so what if i'm a crackbaby... that just adds to my personality. i like colorfulness and i love being fun. and also... i'm not THAT completely wretched looking. at least i don't think so. SO WHY IN THE NAME OF PETE SAMPRAS IS IT SOOOO IMPOSSIBLE FOR GUYS TO SEE THIS?!?!? it's not like i hide my craziness. true, it's probably too much for some to handle, but you'd think that somewhere in a sea of 30,000 guys there would be SOMEONE who could appreciate me and actually want to spend time with me. i'm trying really hard not to blame myself and make it seem like there's something wrong with me, but it's getting harder by the second. especially when the guy i like (a lot) is deciding that he'd rather not talk to me or hang out with me anymore. why?? i don't know.
and also... why are guys so completely different than girls?? guys say they don't understand women, but good lord men are beyond comprehension.
this is making me sad and i don't like it.
and i'm sorry but i think i'm a pretty cool kid. so what if i'm a crackbaby... that just adds to my personality. i like colorfulness and i love being fun. and also... i'm not THAT completely wretched looking. at least i don't think so. SO WHY IN THE NAME OF PETE SAMPRAS IS IT SOOOO IMPOSSIBLE FOR GUYS TO SEE THIS?!?!? it's not like i hide my craziness. true, it's probably too much for some to handle, but you'd think that somewhere in a sea of 30,000 guys there would be SOMEONE who could appreciate me and actually want to spend time with me. i'm trying really hard not to blame myself and make it seem like there's something wrong with me, but it's getting harder by the second. especially when the guy i like (a lot) is deciding that he'd rather not talk to me or hang out with me anymore. why?? i don't know.
and also... why are guys so completely different than girls?? guys say they don't understand women, but good lord men are beyond comprehension.
this is making me sad and i don't like it.