Help me I'm in Hell
this is just-- i just can't handle my life.
my weight is the only thing i can control. great. finally. but i don't honestly care that much about it. not compared to all the other crap i have to deal with.
i would kill to be in school.
i'm trying to pay back my debts but it's imposssible.
i can't ever get anything done, i undermine even my tiny victories.
i need to get my license back, but i have to pay so much, call so many people and i just can't talk on the phone to people because i am such a fucking freak. i can't ever do anything. i can't. can't. can't. i would change everything about myself. i'm trying to, i am trying so hard to be normal and have normal relationships and to control my thoughts and anxiety but in the end
at the end of the day i just want to meet my maker and have him hold me and have everything be okay.
better is one day in His court than a thousand elsewhere...
i don't know what He wants from me, i thought we wanted the same things but who knows? in the end i just think that i'm crazy and one day i'll go to sleep and never wake up
and finally,
none of this will matter.
my weight is the only thing i can control. great. finally. but i don't honestly care that much about it. not compared to all the other crap i have to deal with.
i would kill to be in school.
i'm trying to pay back my debts but it's imposssible.
i can't ever get anything done, i undermine even my tiny victories.
i need to get my license back, but i have to pay so much, call so many people and i just can't talk on the phone to people because i am such a fucking freak. i can't ever do anything. i can't. can't. can't. i would change everything about myself. i'm trying to, i am trying so hard to be normal and have normal relationships and to control my thoughts and anxiety but in the end
at the end of the day i just want to meet my maker and have him hold me and have everything be okay.
better is one day in His court than a thousand elsewhere...
i don't know what He wants from me, i thought we wanted the same things but who knows? in the end i just think that i'm crazy and one day i'll go to sleep and never wake up
and finally,
none of this will matter.