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Close Your Eyes, Rest Your Head On My Shoulder...Baby Boy Your Time On Earth Is Now Over, No More Sorrows, No More Pain, No More Tears..Your An Angel In Heaven Set To Fly Free.
I dont really want this all to be happening to me yet for some reason it is... first i lose someone who i really loved with all my heart and soul... he's gone and there's nothing i can do to get him back;; life is hard without him there for me but i guess it means i have to live like there's no tomorrow. Hopefully he knows just how much i truely did care and love him.. so we had disagreements and arguements..but through it all i still loved him no matter what happened.
Now i come home to find my cat is dead... Loosing 2 things in life that mean the most to me.. it hurts really badly yet i know there's nothing i can do. My dad told me that when the kittens were born i was allowed to keep any of them, yet i ended up keeping one because there was something special about it that just caught my eye. The kitten was healthy it never had any health problems but tonight for some reason the damn neighborhood dogs decided to get ahold of it... when you watch an animal go from being a baby to a fully grown adult you become close to it and get attached easily or at least i know i did.... now i feel as if my whole heart and soul has been torn apart by some wild animal. With everything that has happened to me in the past 4 days... i some how always find a way to keep pushing through like nothing has happened.. this has really taken a toll on me now i honestly dont believe i can keep going on.
What's the reason for me still being here? What could possibly be out there for me to see...i've lost so much but gained nothing from all of it...
There's so much that i wanted to tell the person i loved yet couldnt..... now its too late and i cant do nothing to fix that.
Where ever you go, whatever road you decide to take in life.. i hope you know that you'll always carry a part of my heart with you.. i loved you since day one, and have always cared for you no matter what. Though we're not together remember i'm here for you, who ever you decide to date next i hope she loved you like i did and that she treats you right. The only thing i want to see is you happy, i dont care if i'm not happy... all i care about is you and nothing will ever change that feeling!
I dont really want this all to be happening to me yet for some reason it is... first i lose someone who i really loved with all my heart and soul... he's gone and there's nothing i can do to get him back;; life is hard without him there for me but i guess it means i have to live like there's no tomorrow. Hopefully he knows just how much i truely did care and love him.. so we had disagreements and arguements..but through it all i still loved him no matter what happened.
Now i come home to find my cat is dead... Loosing 2 things in life that mean the most to me.. it hurts really badly yet i know there's nothing i can do. My dad told me that when the kittens were born i was allowed to keep any of them, yet i ended up keeping one because there was something special about it that just caught my eye. The kitten was healthy it never had any health problems but tonight for some reason the damn neighborhood dogs decided to get ahold of it... when you watch an animal go from being a baby to a fully grown adult you become close to it and get attached easily or at least i know i did.... now i feel as if my whole heart and soul has been torn apart by some wild animal. With everything that has happened to me in the past 4 days... i some how always find a way to keep pushing through like nothing has happened.. this has really taken a toll on me now i honestly dont believe i can keep going on.
What's the reason for me still being here? What could possibly be out there for me to see...i've lost so much but gained nothing from all of it...
There's so much that i wanted to tell the person i loved yet couldnt..... now its too late and i cant do nothing to fix that.
Where ever you go, whatever road you decide to take in life.. i hope you know that you'll always carry a part of my heart with you.. i loved you since day one, and have always cared for you no matter what. Though we're not together remember i'm here for you, who ever you decide to date next i hope she loved you like i did and that she treats you right. The only thing i want to see is you happy, i dont care if i'm not happy... all i care about is you and nothing will ever change that feeling!