Hey there Freddy
I am not too sure what to type about. Looks like the rest of my friends have left Lj for good, that just leaves me by myself in this lonely abyss called the internet. Yayyyyyyy!!!
No, not really. I do recall in one of my very old entries typing something about me keeping up with this journal no matter what, I don't know why I do this though seeing as how nobody will ever find this and if they do- it will serve no purpose for anyone. Even when I die I suppose all that will remain is my thoughts and memories stored on the internet for as long as either humanity or the internet remain (one of them has to end sometime).
Seeing as how everyone has left now, there actually may be a chance that I am crazy. Nobody in their right mind would keep an open journal for anyone to see, but have nobody read it; especially on a social network like this.
Speaking of crazy, I do believe that I am becoming more and more of a schizoid as time goes on. I've been feeling really lonely, and have nobody to talk to about anything. I have friends, but I don't see them very often and again, I am beginning to withdraw from everyone else. I don't feel like I need them around though, it's more like they help me get somewhere I couldn't get to before on my own. I feel fine by myself.
I started going a little bit through my old entries and I realized just how old I am getting. I can't really say I have nothing to show for it, but it is certainly almost disappointing how much I really have. At the same time though, I am not an average person; I don't look like anyone else, I don't think like most people and I don't act like the rest. Probably has something to do with me being a schizoid? In any case, I do have plans for the future. I'm almost done with my associates degree (woop de fucking doo that's nothing to be proud of), got a 401K, have my mutual funds set up, I am a business owner now. For the most part still working at Wal Mart and I am hoping to get Valencia to join ACN with me (that's our company we work for ;] ).
Looking to get a new job as soon as I get my Wal Mart bonus and as soon as I know that I am clean, cause I smoked a lil bit of Marijuana after I was done with probation as a means of celebrating. That was over a month ago though so I am sure I will pass a urinalysis because I know how the tests work and how THC is stored in the system.
This is starting to look like a pretty big entry! I feel funny typiSng the exclamation points considering that nobody is gonna read this, and just how frustrating life is right now, considering my crappy job (which I hope to leave soon) and just how sexually frustrated I am at this point; possibly because I am male. Don't know why my interest in women came so late... anyway...
My muscles are SORE and I feel like I could use a massage and need to pop all the bones in my body. My body is tense.
Time to wrap this up.
Before I go, the pain in my chest went away for a while after I smoked marijuana. A few weeks after that- about five weeks the pain started to come back, now it only comes and goes, it doesn't stay like before and the duration is only a few seconds.
I don't know if it is something serious or not, but I really haven't told anyone or if I even plan on it. Maybe I should just be good, and uncharacteristically visit ALL my friends. You never know when you or they will leave the planet forever.
No, not really. I do recall in one of my very old entries typing something about me keeping up with this journal no matter what, I don't know why I do this though seeing as how nobody will ever find this and if they do- it will serve no purpose for anyone. Even when I die I suppose all that will remain is my thoughts and memories stored on the internet for as long as either humanity or the internet remain (one of them has to end sometime).
Seeing as how everyone has left now, there actually may be a chance that I am crazy. Nobody in their right mind would keep an open journal for anyone to see, but have nobody read it; especially on a social network like this.
Speaking of crazy, I do believe that I am becoming more and more of a schizoid as time goes on. I've been feeling really lonely, and have nobody to talk to about anything. I have friends, but I don't see them very often and again, I am beginning to withdraw from everyone else. I don't feel like I need them around though, it's more like they help me get somewhere I couldn't get to before on my own. I feel fine by myself.
I started going a little bit through my old entries and I realized just how old I am getting. I can't really say I have nothing to show for it, but it is certainly almost disappointing how much I really have. At the same time though, I am not an average person; I don't look like anyone else, I don't think like most people and I don't act like the rest. Probably has something to do with me being a schizoid? In any case, I do have plans for the future. I'm almost done with my associates degree (woop de fucking doo that's nothing to be proud of), got a 401K, have my mutual funds set up, I am a business owner now. For the most part still working at Wal Mart and I am hoping to get Valencia to join ACN with me (that's our company we work for ;] ).
Looking to get a new job as soon as I get my Wal Mart bonus and as soon as I know that I am clean, cause I smoked a lil bit of Marijuana after I was done with probation as a means of celebrating. That was over a month ago though so I am sure I will pass a urinalysis because I know how the tests work and how THC is stored in the system.
This is starting to look like a pretty big entry! I feel funny typiSng the exclamation points considering that nobody is gonna read this, and just how frustrating life is right now, considering my crappy job (which I hope to leave soon) and just how sexually frustrated I am at this point; possibly because I am male. Don't know why my interest in women came so late... anyway...
My muscles are SORE and I feel like I could use a massage and need to pop all the bones in my body. My body is tense.
Time to wrap this up.
Before I go, the pain in my chest went away for a while after I smoked marijuana. A few weeks after that- about five weeks the pain started to come back, now it only comes and goes, it doesn't stay like before and the duration is only a few seconds.
I don't know if it is something serious or not, but I really haven't told anyone or if I even plan on it. Maybe I should just be good, and uncharacteristically visit ALL my friends. You never know when you or they will leave the planet forever.