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So I made the horrible mistake, of going out to dinner with an old friend. It brought back all the feelings of where I used to be, and the contemplation that althought I'm trying so hard to seperate myself ... in that seperation, nothing productive has come. I still have the attitude to dwell , and sit in my room 24/7 to think numb myself away.
I guess I just really need to think about what I need to do .. to fix this ... all of this. So mabye , this mess, my life will be where I want it. No longer will I spend those endless nights, still feeling like a victim. I'm finally in control. And that , that I can say is beatiful. I finally believe that I'm worth it, my life is worth it. And thank you , thank you , Donny, for making me realise that , I meant nothing to you , but oppruntunity ... and I really don't care , because I will no longer spend my life , with you weight on my shoulders ... and that , THAT, is one step forward.
I guess I just really need to think about what I need to do .. to fix this ... all of this. So mabye , this mess, my life will be where I want it. No longer will I spend those endless nights, still feeling like a victim. I'm finally in control. And that , that I can say is beatiful. I finally believe that I'm worth it, my life is worth it. And thank you , thank you , Donny, for making me realise that , I meant nothing to you , but oppruntunity ... and I really don't care , because I will no longer spend my life , with you weight on my shoulders ... and that , THAT, is one step forward.