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Today ... wow, so I talked to my parents, okay well just my dad. He was so amazing and nice to me. I felt so embarresed and like such a horrible kid, to keep putting them through all that I have. After that, I went over to Donny's house. Wow, um , so I cried and he held me like a baby and rocked me back and forth. We talked about every opition. We both looked so scared. And we both kind of just sat their crying. I told him that my dad thought it would be best if I didn't go through with it, and I finally got my life on track. But, everyone agreed it was up to me , and they would support me. I was angry in a way, because I hoped in going to see him, that he would tell me he loved me and he wanted everything. I couldn't help but go back to ,if it wasn't me would you react different. But, somehow, it fit, us being together ...
So in the end, he walked me out to my car. And held my head , and said I know you don't believe this,but everything will be okay. And I started crying and he looked away, saying please, please don't do this not now. I can't handle this. Kind of held his head and told me he had to go. So I stood their in tears, and walked back to his door. He oped it and looked at the ground, and I said I need to know you're okay. He said I don't know what to do, but I'm just, I'm going to go to sleep now. I turned around and walked away.
On a silent ride home, I decided to give it up. It's so so selfish of me. I know it's wrong, but it's what I feel I have to do.
I guess, it may sound like I'm talking in code, but o well. I'm sorry to anyone I put through drama of the last few days.
I love all of you, and I'm praying for you . Thank you Lauren Crook for everything. You always are my hero!
So in the end, he walked me out to my car. And held my head , and said I know you don't believe this,but everything will be okay. And I started crying and he looked away, saying please, please don't do this not now. I can't handle this. Kind of held his head and told me he had to go. So I stood their in tears, and walked back to his door. He oped it and looked at the ground, and I said I need to know you're okay. He said I don't know what to do, but I'm just, I'm going to go to sleep now. I turned around and walked away.
On a silent ride home, I decided to give it up. It's so so selfish of me. I know it's wrong, but it's what I feel I have to do.
I guess, it may sound like I'm talking in code, but o well. I'm sorry to anyone I put through drama of the last few days.
I love all of you, and I'm praying for you . Thank you Lauren Crook for everything. You always are my hero!