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Weird few days. I hung out with Jhaniva! Which was SO much fun. We honestly haven't seen eachother since 8th grade (we were best friends throughout elementary school) and everything was exactly the same. The same two goofy girls. We went to Baywalk ate and saw a movie. : )
Last night I went to the park at the beach (ie, favorite place EVER) It was amazing, it was late, dark and the stars were bright. We layed in the castle and talked about what we were going to do. It was all IF then, tonight I went back alone. And sat on the swings, like I have a million times before and started to cry. I just, really don't even know what to say. I can't handle it, and neither can he. I can come to grips with the fact that it something I can't escape. No matter what I have to deal with it. I have to make a decision. And I really want to run away , and hide under the covers. But, the problem is with me. And won't go away. I guess, I just have to keep think, through all of this year, what doesn't kill you , makes you stronger.
Last night I went to the park at the beach (ie, favorite place EVER) It was amazing, it was late, dark and the stars were bright. We layed in the castle and talked about what we were going to do. It was all IF then, tonight I went back alone. And sat on the swings, like I have a million times before and started to cry. I just, really don't even know what to say. I can't handle it, and neither can he. I can come to grips with the fact that it something I can't escape. No matter what I have to deal with it. I have to make a decision. And I really want to run away , and hide under the covers. But, the problem is with me. And won't go away. I guess, I just have to keep think, through all of this year, what doesn't kill you , makes you stronger.