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Reading Twwly's blog is a good distraction from unhappy thoughts. It leads me to new frustrations, though: frustration that we don't yet have a house, haven't moved... everything is on hold.
I want to put in my new garden. I want bees. I want a kitchen where I can preserve the garden's bounty and cook awesome meals, maybe with my sister or arsonchild working beside me. I want to set up a house with all of our belongings in it, rather than 1/3 of them in storage. And I want to be able to go through those belongings and actually get rid of some of them. I want to have people over for dinner and movies and etc. I want to put in a big new pen for Rex, with a stream running through it, and maybe a second box turtle to be his friend. I want a second small pond, a reservoir for growing more plants for the pond. I want all of our art on display, and space to make and hang much more.
I want I want I want.
I thought that by now I would be harvesting tomatoes in my new place. I'd have remodeled the kitchen, I'd be decorating the rest of the place. Instead we're looking yet again for yet another new place. It's frustrating. I'm ready to move on to that next phase. Can we find a house, please?
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I have more than 2 inches of roots right now and it's time to bleach. I'm torn, though, between bleaching the whole top layer again, and bleaching it in fat streaks. My natural hair color is actually very pretty, a mix of almost-black and red. But it gets lighter and lighter in the sun... and I still have bits that are bleached on the ends...
I have a lot of gray hairs right now too, i guess because of the stress I've had this summer. I love my natural color but it doesn't feel as "me" as the high-octane colors that make me happy.
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For some reason I started bleeding today, only 3 weeks after my last period. I don't know wtf is up. But I really need a break.
I want to put in my new garden. I want bees. I want a kitchen where I can preserve the garden's bounty and cook awesome meals, maybe with my sister or arsonchild working beside me. I want to set up a house with all of our belongings in it, rather than 1/3 of them in storage. And I want to be able to go through those belongings and actually get rid of some of them. I want to have people over for dinner and movies and etc. I want to put in a big new pen for Rex, with a stream running through it, and maybe a second box turtle to be his friend. I want a second small pond, a reservoir for growing more plants for the pond. I want all of our art on display, and space to make and hang much more.
I want I want I want.
I thought that by now I would be harvesting tomatoes in my new place. I'd have remodeled the kitchen, I'd be decorating the rest of the place. Instead we're looking yet again for yet another new place. It's frustrating. I'm ready to move on to that next phase. Can we find a house, please?
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I have more than 2 inches of roots right now and it's time to bleach. I'm torn, though, between bleaching the whole top layer again, and bleaching it in fat streaks. My natural hair color is actually very pretty, a mix of almost-black and red. But it gets lighter and lighter in the sun... and I still have bits that are bleached on the ends...
I have a lot of gray hairs right now too, i guess because of the stress I've had this summer. I love my natural color but it doesn't feel as "me" as the high-octane colors that make me happy.
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For some reason I started bleeding today, only 3 weeks after my last period. I don't know wtf is up. But I really need a break.