Sad
I'm sad, which is an unusual state for me, and I think the blame goes to watching the S2 finale of Supernatural today* (in which Dean sells his life for Sam's) and also to facing up to the fact that I have to switch back into serious work mode pronto.
I spend 95% of my time in one of three emotional states:
1. Fine to good
2. Really very good indeed (rising to bouncing off the walls at new-fandom time)
3. Mildly annoyed
Most of the other 5% would be "very annoyed", and fortunately "annoyed" has a safety net, since if I spend enough time that way, I'll start finding it funny and that sends me back to states 1 or 2. I don't really do sad as part of my everyday repertoire and am lucky not to have had any external events that have forced it on me for long in years. However, Dean was so, so sad and driven to do something so extreme it permeated my entire existence this afternoon.
(My point is not to whinge about having to do some work rather than watching endless television, like a five-year-old whose toys are being taken away, but to record how incredibly sad I found the episode! It's hard to make me this sad.)
* I'm not actually up to the S2 finale or even finished with S1, but I decided I could no longer risk something happening to me before I saw it. I don't want my last thought to be "Aaargh! I haven't seen all of the best moments of Supernatural!"
I spend 95% of my time in one of three emotional states:
1. Fine to good
2. Really very good indeed (rising to bouncing off the walls at new-fandom time)
3. Mildly annoyed
Most of the other 5% would be "very annoyed", and fortunately "annoyed" has a safety net, since if I spend enough time that way, I'll start finding it funny and that sends me back to states 1 or 2. I don't really do sad as part of my everyday repertoire and am lucky not to have had any external events that have forced it on me for long in years. However, Dean was so, so sad and driven to do something so extreme it permeated my entire existence this afternoon.
(My point is not to whinge about having to do some work rather than watching endless television, like a five-year-old whose toys are being taken away, but to record how incredibly sad I found the episode! It's hard to make me this sad.)
* I'm not actually up to the S2 finale or even finished with S1, but I decided I could no longer risk something happening to me before I saw it. I don't want my last thought to be "Aaargh! I haven't seen all of the best moments of Supernatural!"