I shiver at night when your arms are not securely around me.
You make my heart heavy and my brain steady.
I never knew one person could make me so happy.

Depression, I feel it too, more intensely when it is coming from you.
I just want to make you happy too.

I believe in you just as you do me.
But true love is greedy, i want you with me always.

side stepping, second guessing, ego tripper.

I am tired, anxious, and filled with hate ( Read more... )

I tend to leave my heart shattered and scattered with all the pieces I lent out.
I cant count the days and hours I spent pressured and stressed, depressed,
feeling uneasy and undressed.
Yet I still have regrets for the decisions that I thought were the best.

Like poison to my brain, you left your stain.

Another day rolls by.
How will i decide?

I feel like a big ball of exploding emotion right now. I dont know how else to discribe this.
I am soooo fucking confused.
Why does life do this to me all the time, i think i got it all figured out then bam, somthing else drops in my lap and i dont know how to get through it.

WTF???

I just wanna go home!

I dont know what to say, life has changed sooo much for me in the last couple of months... my mother and i are no longer on speaking terms, i think i am moving back down to sfl.... I cant really explain much else if i put too much thought into it, my heart will explode... I just want to wake up and realize what would be best for me in the future, ( Read more... )

I have abused and used you ( Read more... )

I feel bad for the entry i wrote yesterday, and i just want to say that i love my mother, and I hate making it sound like she is a burrden on me, but the stress of it all makes me say crazy things ( Read more... )

So i am headed down south on Tuesday, I am just going to see how bad things are there before i determin when i can come back ( Read more... )

We garnissh our fears in emotional tears ( Read more... )