its been forever sence ive even had the time or energy to sit down at this thing and type. it has felt oddly alone without my daily spill. im alone and it hurts. ive picked up a book on a friends recomendations ( thank you miss kristen) ive begun to read a graham greene book i picked up at a thrift store. its auctly a collection of 3 books. right ( Read more... )

in some sort of drunken joke last night, i met up with beth. i have known beth sence i was little. she was in town. she was blue. and when missery needs company i go. we talked about the past. and it got me thinking all i ever do is talk about the past. its like im afarid to look at the future and see what might happen. i took her hand in mine last ( Read more... )

its been so crazy lately. you know i didnt expect this whole job thing to take off the way it is. at least its something i want to do. i went out with christian tonight. we looked at the old house me and him use to live in and laughed. we couldnt figure out what went on. we were so happy. laura met us at the chinese food place on 5th and we talked ( Read more... )

i dont want to complain. i dont want to look at any of my friends any more and tell them im sick of this town. this place. how i feel when i walk outside and smell the same air. anyone who has ever lived in the same town their whole life has to understand this. laura hasnt called. we had tickets for bright eyes. i doubt we will be going. i guess ( Read more... )

you are just a little child ( Read more... )

I woke up really late. Last night me and Laura had a fight. I didn't yell, I didn't scream. We both just talked about how so many things have been changing. She talked to her mom and i guess shes moving back home. I'm a mess, but i'll make it. I have heald onto this ticking time bomb and all I can say is that I'm so glad it didnt blow up. Laura ( Read more... )

I didn't know how adictive this thing might get. It's so nice to just know that no one i know will be reading this. A little about me ( Read more... )

I can't complain about life. me and laura are doing just fine. Everyone is saying that we need to get married... and maybe we will. You know i guess im an ass for feeling this way. For waking up and wanting to see someone else face... For not holding her at night. I think i just need to remember why i fell inlove.. and right now all i cant think ( Read more... )