i've been off heroin for 15 days today i wanna kill myself

i havent been doing so great. I thought I was getting more dope yesterday, I still might get some today but it completely ruined my day. Just spending that much time and energy thinking about getting high drains me completely... Makes me feel so low I want to fucking off myself.
In the mean time, I've been getting blacked out on my large supply of ( Read more... )

This game you’re playing is so tedious

Black out on white lies and blame it on bulimia.

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    Why is there no meaning behind what people say anymore? When I say I don't like someone, I mean it, that's the reason I say it. I don't say it to show that I'm OK without them or that I don't need them in my life. Since when are people so conniving? I wish people actually meant the things they said. It seems like no one does anymore ( Read more... )

I think I just grew up too fast last year. Now, if I have a weekend where I don't sneak out both nights and get completely trashed I don't even know what to do with myself. I HATE being home by myself like this, I want someone to pick me up and take me to a party right now!!

We talked about how creative journaling helps relieve stress, anxiety, that kind of thing. I used to journal all of the time, but I stopped because my parents found it, and at that time I mainly wrote about my eating disorder and the behaviors I was using so it was just horrible. But, now that I'm recovered, I doubt they'll be snooping around in my ( Read more... )

I guess they don't know what stage it's at yet.. I don't know, my dad didn't tell me much about it and I didn't want to press for information. I'm just really worried. 

I love this picture. It always helps me when I'm feeling unmotivated, which, recently, is very often.


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