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Lately you've been on my mind more than usual, maybe it's because I spend the days alone, because I recently heard about you, or because the chilly winter reminds me of those nights we cuddled to stay warm. Whatever the reason, I have a feeling that this is the last I'll be missing you, and as they say, the final stretch is the hardest to get ( Read more... ) -
If I was just me
If I was just me. The current me: not the strong me, the old me, or the me that tries hard.
If I was just the current me.
Would people accept me?
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Challenge (yes man) started august 22. I took this "challenge" because I figured all the things I regret are things I didn't go to, the things I said no. Even when I end up regretting saying yes, a couple months later, it's no longer a regret anymore.
Saturday I was invited to go to a BBQ. I Hesitated because it was at Randall's place and I know how ( Read more... ) -
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We were eating dinner and watching netflix with the door open. He walked up and asked to pick up his monitor. And he left.
No text for a heads up. No nothing.
Why am I sad? I'm not sure. I guess part of me is disappointed that clearly there is nothing between us anymore. We're not friends, nor are we trying to be friends anymore. We are just ( Read more... ) -
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It's been a month since.
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Alone in a house
when I talked about how excited I was to be in the house alone and sleep on the carpet and watch movies and unpack and do nothing for a week, I meant alone with you, not by myself. With you coding in the corner while I settle in. But I guess that wouldn't have happened anyway, seeing the way you wanted to just go to sleep while I was packing up my ( Read more... ) -
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Last night
Last night I had a nightmare
I woke up from it and felt so uncomfortable.
I felt so alone.
But then I turned around and felt your body next to me.
I has forgotten you stayed over.
I was so happy that I could hug you.
And fell asleep, warm and safe.
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New Years resolution
So I stopped doing this "New Years resolution" because I realized that it's just an excuse to wait to start a goal that you aren't going to finish. I started to make goals in the middle of the year.
But it's good to have a new goal. My two goals from fall was to keep my room clean and probably something like don't have a bad day
Goals to keep in ( Read more... ) -
Why do I only blog the bad?
I remember a while that I used to blog the smallest but happiest details of my life
When I'm sad I tend to read other peoples blogs, including my own. But there's nothing motivational or happy. I need to start writing down my strong points.