FIC: Let Me Prove It To You (13/?)
Title: Let Me Prove It To You 13/?
Pairing: JJ/Emily
Summary: It’s been months since Emily Prentiss left the BAU and the US for that matter. It’s also been months since she last saw Jennifer Jareau. But what happens when Emily gets a call that JJ has been in an accident?
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: I don’t own Criminal Minds or its characters. I wish I did, though.
A/N: I promised you a new chapter today, so here it is :) Also, I enjoyed reading all of your guesses as to who that woman in Emily’s apartment is and I gotta say some of you got it right, hehe :D As always, thank you so much for taking the time to review the story and I hope you enjoy this next installment!
Chapter 13
With tears in her eyes and body that no longer felt like her own, JJ ran out of Emily’s apartment and her apartment building. When she ran outside, she felt a cold evening chill and raindrops falling into her hair and on her clothes.
When she felt the breath of fresh air, she stopped and started taking deep breaths, almost scared that if she didn’t, she was going to run out of oxygen.
Of course Emily would never forgive her. Why would she after everything she had done? Emily had a new life now and it was stupid for JJ to think that Emily’s time with her was anything more than an old friend helping out another friend. It was foolish of her to think that it could be a life they could have for real. Emily no longer wanted her, and truth be told, JJ couldn’t even blame her.
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Emily watched JJ run out of the apartment and for a second she considere
d letting her go, just to make her think what she undoubtedly was thinking. To make her see what it’s like when the person you’re in love with is sleeping with someone else. But what good would it really do? What good would it do to hurt JJ more than she had already been hurt? Because Emily knew that JJ was hurting and desperate and she couldn’t hurt her any more just for stupid payback. Plus it scared her what might happen if JJ gets into a car in the condition that she was in. So she ran out of the apartment, hoping that JJ was still in the proximity of the building.
When Emily went outside, she saw JJ standing on the steps of her apartment building. She appeared to be crying, but Emily couldn’t really say, because JJ’s back was turned towards the entrance to the building. And for the first time that evening, instead of being so damn mad at JJ, Emily just wanted to hold the blonde and never let her go.
“JJ!” Emily shouted and JJ couldn’t help but turn around to face the brunette once again. “Wait!”
“No, it’s OK, you don’t have to explain.” JJ whispered through tears.
“You’re right, I don’t.” Emily replied, because she really didn’t have to explain anything to JJ, not after the way JJ had left her. But she just couldn’t let the blonde think what she did. “But I…”
“No, Emily, don’t!” JJ cut her short quickly. “I don’t want to know. I have no right to ask for anything. I don’t know what in the world possessed me to think that I could just show up and ask you for forgiveness and you’d take me back. It was selfish of me to think that you could still…” JJ paused to take a breath, “that you could still feel something for me. A little piece of what I know you felt when we were together. I’m sorry for thinking that and…”
“Would you just shut up?!” Emily finally shouted at her, because she was tired of the misunderstanding and tired of JJ thinking that she didn’t love her anymore.
“What?” JJ asked slightly confused, because she didn’t expect Emily to be this harsh with her.
“Just shut up, shut up!” Emily repeated as she took two steps towards the liaison and they were now almost touching. And as Emily tried to come up with the words to explain, she figured there was only one way she could. And with that realization she closed the gap between hers and JJ’s lips, because that was the only way she could make it clear to JJ how she felt. JJ’s lips were cold and wet from falling rain and salty tears, but Emily still couldn’t remember anything tasting this amazing in a long time. She could feel the kiss took JJ’s by surprise, but it didn’t take the blonde long to reciprocate the kiss with such desperation like she was never gonna kiss Emily ever again. Emily felt JJ’s tongue entering her mouth, JJ’s hands in her hair, and JJ’s chest pressed tightly to hers. The blonde was trembling and Emily could feel more tears coming from her eyes. JJ was almost terrified at how amazing it felt to have Emily’s lips on hers. And she didn’t care if this was a goodbye kiss or whatever the hell that was, she was gonna kiss Emily like there’s no tomorrow, because it had been too long and she wanted something to remember Emily by if Emily indeed decided to tell her to go to hell after the kiss. And a part of Emily had wanted to send JJ away, to tell her that it was too late, that she had hurt her too much for Emily to take her back. And maybe she should have more pride, maybe she should make JJ work for it, but she was too damn weak to resist the blonde. She always had been. Having spent all this time with the liaison, Emily just couldn’t wait any longer to make her feelings known. And while things were still messed up and she knew they had a long road ahead, she just needed JJ to know how she felt, because she was tired of pretending that she had no feelings left for her. She had always hated lying and she had never been good at it and not telling JJ the truth just felt so much like lying and Emily couldn’t stand that.
When they finally broke apart to breathe, JJ wanted to say something, but Emily crashed her lips onto the blonde’s again. And it was in that moment that JJ knew that it wasn’t a goodbye kiss. The intensity of the kiss, the way Emily wiped the tears from her cheeks and the way she placed her hand on her neck, JJ knew that the kiss was saying so much more than goodbye. They both could feel the months of separation poured into this one kiss, the kind of kiss that some only read in books about. All the anger, fear, resentment and grief was in that one kiss, yet somehow they both knew this was a kiss of hope and promise. Emily’s words soon confirmed that.
“If you think I could ever be happy with anyone else, you’re out of your freakin’ mind.” Emily said when she broke the kiss again to look into JJ’s teary eyes. “You destroyed me, JJ. You destroyed me for anyone who would ever try to care about me. Every lips I kissed, every eyes I looked into were just wrong. They were so wrong, because they were not yours.” She gently ran her hand across JJ’s cheek. “And I love you, you idiot! I fucking love you! Sometimes I hated myself for still loving you so damn much, but there was nothing I could do to stop it, so I just stopped trying.” Emily said, tears now welling up in her eyes again.
Even though JJ could sense Emily’s love in both of their kisses, to actually hear the words spoken made her weak in the knees. The way Emily was looking at her that very moment, JJ knew she was falling apart. She almost didn’t understand how a person can love you so much after you have broken their heart in the worst possible manner. But there was still one thing JJ wanted to know, even though she knew she had no right to ask, or no right to know.
“That woman?” She finally asked, referring to the voice she heard in Emily’s apartment.
“JJ…” Emily looked at her as if trying to say ‘don’t go there.’
“She called you ‘honey.’” JJ looked at Emily meaningfully. And she knew how hypocritical she was being, after what she had done do Emily when she chose Will, but she needed to know. And she was sure that Emily had actually had a life when she was in Italy, life that probably included other women, but there was just something about another woman being in Emily’s apartment while JJ had finally decided to tell her she loved her. JJ couldn’t stand it. She couldn’t stand knowing that there was someone in Emily’s apartment in the bedroom and that someone wasn’t her. She felt like such a fraud, considering that what she had done to Emily was much much worse, but it still almost physically hurt her to think about any other lips kissing Emily’s. But Emily almost laughed at the thought of what JJ was suggesting.
“That woman is my mother’s friend. She’s crashing at my place for a couple of days, because she didn’t want to stay at a hotel. And she calls me ‘honey’, because she has known me since I was five and I called her ‘aunt’ for a big part of my life.” Emily explained and could see JJ breathe a sigh of relief. JJ was so unbelievably cute when she was jealous.
“I’m sorry, Emily, I’m sorry. And I know I have no right to feel this way, but the idea of you and…” JJ tried to get the words out, but was interrupted by Emily’s lips on hers. Another warm wave of emotions ran through her entire body. How did she ever think that she could live without those kisses?
“Come on, let’s go inside.” Emily whispered after the kiss, as she took JJ’s hand in hers. Electricity ran through their bodies and they both realized how much they had really missed each other.