ok so i'm getting ahead of myself.
but i loveeee christmas and basically for the next 3 weekends i will be doing little bits of christmas shopping and decorating and all around festive things. I can't wait. too bad once christmas actually comes i won't be happy but i love preparing!

all bad feelings are gone.
i'm happy

this morning i had read emily's live journal entry about a dead bird being a bad sign and then i was just walking back upstairs and as i passed the slider i saw something on my deck. I walked over there to get a closer look and see a small black bird lying, dead, on my deck. It automatically sent a bad feeling through my whole body. I just sat ( Read more... )

October 18, 2005

Mercury, planet of the five senses, is in Scorpio, the zodiac sign of intensity. Today's tension with Neptune, planet of illusions, makes your love life uncertain. Stick to concrete arrangements and dates. Do you want clarity amidst the passion?

does anyone believe horoscopes???

i do.

i'm breaking my own heart now.
what the fuck am i doing??
how is this "break" going to solve anything???????
i bet it won't last.
i'm a push over.

*sigh* ;-(

Maybe i am unhappy.

If we went on dates it would be all different but we don't . We don't even watch movies together. I so badly wish that i could turn my hormones off for a while so that i couldn't initiate anything or respond to anything. I was so unhappy with how things were going this weekend that i used sex to make things better. ( Read more... )

ok. so let's go back to
"i'm never happy" ? ? ?

what the hell do i want?!
and if i want anything, why the hell can't i ask for it????

saturday was amazing. (this entry is going to do it no justice because i'm not going to go into details) but yup, absolutely amazing!
i miss him so much already. <3

anddddddd my other half is gone now too :-(
what am i going to do with myself now???

1 year ago today i lost my virginity.
he was a virgin too.
i am back together/still with him now.
it's a beautiful thing.
<3

today was only my second day of school and now it is 11:40 on friday night and it already feels like i'm back to summer. and this is a long weekend...whattttttttttttttttttttttttttt

oh yeah, school can suck my dick :-)