who am i kidding, everyday is a ::sigh:: day. damn me ( Read more... )

i don't think i would've done it if i wasn't drunk. it was a fuck of a buzz kill. wouldn't have passed out if i hadn't. i wonder if anyone noticed? doubtful, since everyone was passed out, not as drunkified as i of course. eeek. really tho, it was the alcohol. alcohol makes you one horny son-of-a. anywho, there is a first time for everything. now ( Read more... )

My moods scare me sometimes. It takes me a while to talk myself outta them. I don't wanna write, i'm lazy. i'm using capitals, until now, when i realized i am, so i stop. soy una caprichosa. he scares me. i wonder if it'll ever stop. i just want him to show me he cares dammit! dammit dammit dammit! is that too much to ask for? oh boo fuckin hoo.

so i was being nosey, again...i swear i should be a P.I., i'd be really good at it, because all you need is one little thing to go on and you could just take it from there. anyways, i was being nosey, and i was reading about how some girl thought she should've been a guy...cause she does all these guy things...and i've thought that many many times ( Read more... )

Ok, time to put it all out, everything that is wrong with me at the moment. not that it's gonna help any, because i've gone over it in my head like a million times and it's not like there's a solution. or i can't find one at least ( Read more... )

i have thoughts, lots of them, but i'm a little tired of typing after being dr.phil for the night. whatever way i can help, i will, granted that the people are willing to listen and to be a bit objective. which some people just defenitely aren't. anywho, i was thinking about something earlier today...what was it...it just slipped my mind, fuck. ah ( Read more... )

actually, i don't really feel like writing. i wish my thoughts could just appear on the screen. maybe if i don't feel lazy later, i'll babble about my friendship mishaps. i don't know what's going on there. not fazed at the moment. maybe at another time. i just don't want to care about anything anymore. tengo sentimientos encontrados. i love that ( Read more... )

Everything in my life that i consider real, isn't. as simple as that. it's just there. cause it kinda has to be. i guess i'm more or less talking about certain people. i'm disappointed. i don't know if it's that i expect too much, want more, or what not. when is enough enough. i don't feel like anyone has shown my enough. ANYONE. i think that it's ( Read more... )

so he calls me, expecting to go see him. how teh fuck am i supposed to do that. i have no means. and of course he manages to guilt trip me :(. i really really do wanna see him, but i have no means to get to him. on the other hand, he can get over here. but i guess that would be asking for too much, since according to him, he's always the one making ( Read more... )

I want to let it all out, but not even like this can I. I don't know where to start, i'm not even sure what's really bothering, it's a combination of things. and i just feel stupid telling someone else cause it doesn't make sense in my head, the reasining i have isn't even valid for myself, so what makes me think it's valid to others ( Read more... )