i hope he thinks he's used me and never calls me again.
i'll give him that power, i don't care.
i just don't want to deal with it.
i'm sick of lying, but i'm too weak to tell the truth.

the sun i going down, not much time to wonder why we do the things we do before we start all over again.

the first thing babe said was "he must have been special. wasn't he speacial?"
and i said, "no, he wasn't speacial, he wasnt special at all."
and then babe said "but he had to have been special."
and i said "no, i promise he wasn't special."
so babe said "but then, why, after 2 years, why wasnt he special?"
and at first i thought it better for it ( Read more... )

the tears, they come out of no where
some times i just cant handle the way i feel about you
and i know you dont believe me
and maybe you never will

if there were bars in this place i would break them
if there were hills in this valley i would shake them
if there were pills in these streets i would take them

i wish i could tell you how much you mean to me

happy 1 year
i love you
more than anything

i wish it made a difference
i wish anything i ever did made a difference

October 24th, 2004

it doesnt matter how much you brush you teeth, you cant get the taste out
no matter how many pillows you put over your ears, you cant drown the sound out
no matter how dark the night is, you can still see it
no matter how much you try to sleep, you still dream it
no matter how much it hurts, you still think about it
no matter how fast ( Read more... )

chain-smoking track star ( Read more... )

run away like this is plague
it is plague
and my eyes are bleeding
stomp this out like fire
this is fire
and im burning

i want to burry my head in your skin
and i want you to tell me that everything is alright
but you wouldnt have to, because you scent hypnotizes me
and when its over, i want you to tell me that i can come out now

i havent felt this weak in a long time