In The Eye of The Beholder (Damon/Elena)

Feb 05, 2013 02:03

Title: In The Eye of The Beholder
Rating: NC-17
For: badboy-fangirl; this is a rewriting of her story Size Matters (which everyone should read because flawlessness).
Characters/Pairings: Damon/Elena
Wordcount: 1100
Summary: Damon can feel Elena's eyes follow him around the room.
A/N: AU after 4x05.

In The Eye of The Beholder )

fanfiction: the vampire diaries

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badboy_fangirl February 5 2013, 02:27:35 UTC
Somehow you posted this twice? Tired much, love? ;-)

I'll be back with comments shortly!


upupa_epops February 5 2013, 02:33:57 UTC
Ugh, lj went down for a few when I was posting! It must've duplicated the post, and I didn't notice. Thanks!


badboy_fangirl February 5 2013, 02:44:05 UTC
So, I really like that he's all self-blaming for this. Like, it's his own fault Elena wants him, but it's not cocky at all (as one might expect) -- it's like this horrible burden he has to bear now and if he had known it would feel this way he never would have done it. (He still would have done it, no matter what ( ... )


upupa_epops February 5 2013, 03:03:19 UTC
I'm so glad you were around to read this right away! Rewritings are tricky, and I was freaking out you wouldn't like it :).

You're right, it's so hard to write Damon's POV without getting all parenthetical ;). It just fits, I can't think of a better way to reflect his auto-irony.

I imagine that her stare must be infuriating and arousing at the same time. He can never be sure why exactly she's looking.

It's just...with Elena it really was about desire and connection and the mystery of him, and then when she sees the emotion burning so brightly in his face, it becomes more emotional for her (always the boy, this girl). So, Damon with all his angsty emotions that really have nothing to do with sex, but ultimately they get to be expressed lovingly (because, always the girl, this boy) and he gets to be seen, and felt, and accepted...just, guh.

In a nutshell.

Thank you for letting me play with your story! <33333 I had a great time, even though I took so long to finish :).


shipperjunkie February 5 2013, 05:07:04 UTC
Good job! I really liked this. :)

Only now Damon realizes that this is actually happening, Elena Gilbert wants him enough to hold him firmly in her hand, and he doesn't even care why, except of course he does.

So Damon, lol. I loved that line.


upupa_epops February 5 2013, 09:27:59 UTC
Thank you! I'm kinda glad you refused to write this, because I had tons of fun with it ;).


shipperjunkie February 5 2013, 19:44:20 UTC
I think 'refuse' is too harsh a word for it. I think 'crippling inability to write' pretty much sums it up. ;p Either way, I'm glad you had fun with it. :)


upupa_epops February 5 2013, 20:20:09 UTC
You couldn't get it up, could you? :P


ever_neutral February 5 2013, 07:06:00 UTC
LOL OMG I just went and read Size Matters and s2g my eyes bugged out of my head. WHOA. MY LIFE HAS BEEN UNUTTERABLY CHANGED TBH.

Lmao I love how self-loathing Damon is about being a hot piece of fuckable meat. Only this moron, I swear. LIFE IS HARD, DAMON.

Ahem. Anyway, I enjoyed this greatly. Your Damon is LOL (as he should be).


upupa_epops February 5 2013, 09:31:32 UTC
YOU HAVE NEVER READ IT BEFORE? Dishonor on you and dishonor on your cow tbh.

Ikr! Being pretty must be so hard.

This boy is pathetic. Yes. Thank you.


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upupa_epops February 5 2013, 14:52:44 UTC
Size Matters is amazing, and also a lot of fun to work with, because it creates a situation in which Elena's and Damon's POVs MUST be very, very different :D. Obviously Damon isn't obsessed with his own penis ;) (Though, who knows...)

I've seen people say Damon worries Elena wants him because of how he looks, and others say he's much more confident than that. What do you think?

I think it actually depends on a day. Elena herself doesn't always react to him the same way. Sometimes she clearly cares about him as a person (see: Denver), and sometimes she's shamelessly focused on the physical (see: "Are you staying for the show?"). I think Damon picks up on it, and that's why his attitude is often ambiguous. He knows she cares about him as a person, that she genuinely wants him for who he is. But he also knows that there are days when she'd be perfectly capable of just treating him like a sex toy. I'd say he's confident, but he's also aware that Elena isn't fully stable.

Thank you so much for your comment and for the ego boost ;)! It ( ... )


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