I'm Just Trying to Stay Blameless (Elena, Damon)

[upupa_epops]

Title: I'm Just Trying to Stay Blameless
Fandom: The Vampire Diaries
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: [4x07 spoiler]This time, I am definitely not ignoring anything that happens in 4x07. There's no sex, but I am strongly focusing on the sire bond, so if the concept is triggering for you, you might want to skip this.
Wordcount: 1300 (I have no idea why did I even set up a

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[upupa_epops]

It's a disease. I believe it's called "verbal diarrhea".

[upupa_epops]

Thank you :).

[angearia]

this hurtsoh elena /o

[upupa_epops]

It's just been drilling in my brain the whole day today :(. To be bound, for Elena, means to be doubted. Constant doubt, self-doubt, supervision. And it sets up the person that's been the source of unconditional acceptance for her ever since she turned as the potential epicenter of doubt. She should stay away from Damon, only she doesn't want to stay away from Damon (because if everyone doubts her motivations, then by default they also doubt Damon's action; he's just as isolated as he is), only she doesn't know if she's allowed to not stay away from Damon. I believe the word we're looking for is "clusterfuck" :(. It's not even about her romantic relationship with Damon: it's about going through yet another identity crisis without her preferred support system.

because it's a question of identity, nature vs. nurture. do you like something because you like it or because someone else liked it and that influenced your liking it? it reminds me of family influence, tbh. or even the influence of dating someone new and getting lost in their

[magisterequitum]

:(((

this hurts so much

like having to rebuild herself and everyone is shitty and not helpful and she has to do it on her own, and like fuck, learning what colors she actually likes

I DON'T LIKE THIS

EXCEPT I DO

BUT DAMN YOU

[upupa_epops]

I just couldn't get this off my mind :(.

Thank you!

[magisterequitum]

My face might have contorted at Caroline's "are you sure" (because I could see her wanting to help but like pushing and Elena wondering if she's just taking what Caroline wants her to be) and then her wanting to hold and hug Bonnie.

and seeking him out because he's avoiding her and making himself small.

ALL MY TEARS

[upupa_epops]

That's the problem with TVD characters, everyone is actually benevolent most of the time, only benevolence doesn't mean jack shit, because those people are so flawed.

and seeking him out because he's avoiding her and making himself small

Is it just me, or did D/E just take a HUGE turn because of the sire bond, and not the obvious one? Up until 4x07 Damon was important because he was, to put it crudely, sexually available. Elena's attraction to Damon (and a possibility for her to sleep with Damon) worked as a metaphor for breaking free from being The Good Girl. Now the tables are turned and suddenly Damon The Friend becomes crucial, because she can't doubt their friendship. Idk, I'm rambling, I can't really phrase it well, but this feels important.

[bogwitch]

Huh, thought provoking. I think in her situation, in the long term I would give in to it. Happiness with doubt, must be better than unhappiness with the same doubt.

[upupa_epops]

Huh, head-scratcher... I actually have no idea. And will Elena be even allowed to do that? I mean, will the others allow her?

[bogwitch]

I doubt it

[mugma]

WHY WAS I GIVEN EMOTIONS ;_______;

He doesn't say “I didn't tell you to kill anyone,” so she doesn't, isn't allowed to say “I know you didn't.”
-_______-

Damn you and your fic spam. Please, just never stop.

It's really nice angsty fic, just hugging and reading books. Aah. And I'm so sorry for Elena, she went through so much painful things in her life and she now gets very little support. Why just can't everyone let her be who she fucking wants to be?! But of course everything people can do, is judging her. Ugh. People, get your shit together.
This sire bond thing bothers me lot, but I hope this would be fine storyline to tell about where Damon and Elena are now in their relationship. Anyway, I just want to hug Damon, because why can't he just be happy for once in his life :(

Moar fics!

[upupa_epops]

Moar fics!

Be careful what you wish for...

Elena can never get a moment's rest, can she? :((((

Thank you for reading and commenting!

[mugma]

Yust give her a moment to actually think about her life, that's all I'm asking for :(