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Prayer doesn't work because the gods are dead
First the asthma at FoS, then the sickness at Christmas, then the pneumonia right before Valentine's Day, then the drugs working TOO well at Mardi Gras and now it has all become abundantly clear. There are no gods, they have no power because they are all dead. They don't listen, they don't see what I have become, they don't know my pain, and they ( Read more... ) -
I have to believe it's going to get better
Yesterday was my birthday. Birthdays have always been a big deal to me. I always try to do or bring something special and if I have nothing, I try to show up. But yesterday, I got 53 birthday wishes on Facebook. This would normally make me very happy but no one called. Not even my mother. I got a birthday song from my roommate and a birthday kiss ( Read more... ) -
I touched the Goddess today
It's T minus 10 days and counting. The excitement is finally mounting. My bachelorette party is this Saturday. I get my dress on Monday. My mother comes in on Tuesday. My sister's come in Thursday night. Rehearsal is Friday night. The BIG DAY is Saturday. And I sit down to feel like I'm running around like a chicken with its head cut off. (For my ( Read more... ) -
The Lupus is GONE
I am fairly certain that you all know I have been suffering with lupus for years. I was diagnosed May 1, 1998 and it is suspected that I have been unknowingly dealing with it since I was very little. No more.
Two or 3 months ago I overheard Trudy telling someone that she could remove their "insert-ailment-here" but only if they were ready to give it ( Read more... ) -
I am in ahh
I'm back! I had to stop by Kroger to get my house key from Brian. I came into the store and he saw me before I saw him. He made a bee line for me and hugged me before I could get out a good "hello". He held me so close I could feel his heart beat. I also noticed that his face was all red. You know the color he turns when he gets flustered or ( Read more... ) -
goin' home to Mama
I am leaving tomorrow in the early a.m. for Pineville, LA and then next Monday we both drive to Bay St. Louis, MS to stay with Aunt Joan. But Turkey Day is being spent in New Orleans with the whole family, even Uncle Mitch from Oregon is coming ( Read more... ) -
IT'S NOT A TUMAH!!
I did the pelvic ultra sound but my bladder wasn't full enough so I had to have the vaginal ultra sound. I like my toys better. The tech was a lot of fun to talk to, also. The mass my gynie felt was my ovary sitting on top of my uterus. The pain I have been feeling is not a tubal baby or a tumor, it's a cyst - one on each ovary. Yay. For now I ( Read more... ) -
um....yeah
so the last time i was on here was a long while ago. forgive me if i don't bother with capitalizations or correct spelling. i'm also about to get graphic with female problems, so those with a penis can skip the next section.
i have been on my period since fos with only a 36 hour break of non leakage. i know this is from my body readjusting after ( Read more... ) -
Fun Party!
I'm doing my first fun party tonight! I am excited and tired as hell. I was/still am in pain from all the rain we've been having. It is not good for my arthritis, mostly in my hips and knees. I had to take a percocet last night and had nightmares and itching all night long. To top it off, my allergies are flaring and I have post-nasal drip. My ( Read more... )