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Useful yoga things
I've never really gotten into yoga, it was mostly just to keep limber and toned. But these are actually pretty right-on.
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Opportunity floss
So I turned down the interview at RB. This was after getting dressed up, washing my hair, waking up early (accidentally ( Read more... ) -
To those I've added as a friend: an insight
When I first joined this site it was just after the turn of the new millennium. There have been a few username changes since then, I no longer am in any stupid and psychologically unhealthy online forums, and I've had to unfriend everyone on here (but made them IRL friends instead), due to stalkers and my ex ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
I've been pretty proud of myself being able to focus so much on writing this week. I have about 14 full chapters, and whislt they may not be interesting enough or even make sense togetehr yet, I've got back in the swing of things and have managed ot enjoy it without judging myself too harshly. The non judgment thing is definitely heliping ( Read more... ) -
New goals for the remainder of lockdown
I've been going through old emails and pictures from the mid 2000's, and it's depressing just how arrogant and thick I was. But most disturbing of all of it is that I just had shit character. From the weakness that led me to stay with Chad even though it was all wrong, to the vanity and perplexity of my so-called goals, unfinished projects - making ( Read more... ) -
Flashes of understanding followed by depression
This has been the pattern over the last week or so; I'll have this deep understanding for about an hour, then dissolve into fretful anxiety over the fact that I can't achieve it. This morning focused on how my parents are the only people who bring me any sense of familiarity. How I can't seem to connect to anyone else, and that there seems to be ( Read more... ) -
Fuck the monsters
Fuck stomach viruses, fuck fevers and fuck the depression that follows in their wake. Fuck all of that. Fuck also, anyone who doesn't understand the value of life or imposes materialistic ideals on themselves and others. Fuck not being sure, even when you should be, and fuck being too scared to speak your mind because your boyfriend is a bit ( Read more... ) -
This journal entry...
Is an attempt not to sound like a complete cunt ( Read more... )