I can't believe that I am still here. I dunno how I survived in a situation where I was told the survival rate was less then 5% twice but I fee worse than I feel or look. I feel the pain and the things are catching up. Death seems to want me not be able to do anything. I can't walk or most times I can't even feed myself. If it were not for my ( Read more... )

I have this itch to write again. It is actually physical. I am so tired from doing anything at all. I am sick and the sickness doesn't allow me to write for long time. By long I mean anything that is more then 30 mins before I really feel fatigued. Which is why I am explaining this ( Read more... )

I know that I haven't updated but if my life didn't turn out what I wanted to what I expected. I didn't think that at 29 you would think of death and not know if you will make it to 30 then the work I did seems useless, and at that point in my life where achievements seem useless, and death is knocking at your door ( Read more... )

I dunno why I'm writing probabaly to just write.

 

I have been told many times by many people and doctors that I have the hormones of a pregnant woman. This being I have cancer and if I were to buy a home pregnancy test it would say so apparently. I have never tested this myself but others have to much amusement. I'm not saying I'm going to try it now but the matter amuses me a lot ( Read more... )

I'm now been here for a few years again and it has made the time funny because the first half of the time I was traveling around the country with impunity. The second half I have been constantly sick now moneyless and beyond repair. I now have no car and with the frustrations of full time work calling and me sick I cannot comply. I think the reason ( Read more... )

So I dunno why I am posting twice in a month. I guess I have a lot to write about. I have a sorta bf that well he's absent so that's why I call him my sorta bf. To my good friends he's known as Spanish's guy but I dunno what to do. I have been sick and he came back to take care of me. I can say that I do like him a lot more then just like but I don ( Read more... )

For those of you who have known me for a long period of time you know that I have identified as Gay. I have known I was gay since I wanted to marry the prince when we were in Elementary school. I still then had this notion that a prince would come to save me and today I sort of have that with my BF's in recent succession . So why am I writing about ( Read more... )

I threw up today and it is something that has unfortunately been a very long 5 months 3 days so far. Not one that I want to harp on or anything .I found out very young age that people don't care if you're a cripple they just expect you to go around it. I'm not sure how not helping me on the bus or helping me carry something when I have in one hand ( Read more... )