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[thatotherpotter]

Sirius was far too easy to please. Arguing with Regulus was just putting him in an incredibly terrible mood, and. Well.

Not important. What was important here was that Remus was inciting things! Or. Sort of. Whatever. He was asking to hang out between classes! Or after classes. Was Remus done with classes? No, probably not. Still! He'd been all

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[thatotherpotter]

For Sirius, it was hard to find that happy medium with people. For-- talking or whatever. Between the blokes like James who had kept a pretty easy childhood, that some of the stuff Sirius could throw out there were probably going to be a bit jarring, if he really got into it. James was a great listener, but Sirius hardly told him the half of what was going on. And then there was Remus who-- he was a fucking werewolf, his family obviously had their fair amount of problems and. Sirius knew there was something not quite on with Remus' father - his mother was nice enough, he didn't know. And Remus had enough bollocks going on that Sirius didn't want to laden him down with any more and

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Yeah, Sirius had been-- a freak. For the last few days. Nyagh. Fucking Regulus. Making him paranoid. He wanted to punch that bloke. In the nose. He kept his own eyes forward now, thumb still sliding easily against Remus' hand. "Right. But-- trip." He sighed a little, wrinkled his nose. "S'pose that's a one thing I can't give you advice on. Coming out to parents, 's not really. A concern of mine. You could always just-- quick like a band-aid? Before they go?"

tease! get ye hence!

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Remus let out a small sigh, bumping his shoulder gently against Sirius's as he squeezed his hand. "I guess. I don't know. I just -- I have no idea what to expect. At all. What if they -- cancel the trip or get so upset they don't let me stay at home?" He shook his head, grimacing. "Just. Yeah. Completely clueless, and it's. I could put it off, but I feel like every time I speak to Mum without telling her, I'm lying."

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Sirius worried at his bottom lip with his teeth, watching Remus as he spoke - not glancing around a bit paranoid, focusing on him for now. 'You really think they'd do that?' he almost asked, but, well, his mother would've-- Sirius didn't even know what, if Sirius had told her, living there. But Remus' parents were most certainly not Sirius', and. He didn't have something very appropriate to compare this to. He wondered how the Potters would've reacted. "Yeah, yeah, I can get that," he mumbled, considering and. "I dunno, it's like-- I don't know your parents too well, I can't really-- gauge how they'd react, like. I don't think they'd cancel it, per se, your mum's-- well, she's a nice lady, she wouldn't jump to that, yeah?"

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Remus's shoulders slumped, suddenly overwhelmed, again, with the knowledge of how unfair life was. He -- maybe they would do that. But whatever they did, however they acted, it certainly wouldn't have been as bad as anything Sirius's parents had done or would have done, given the chance. How did Remus even justify complaining and worrying about a bit of disappointment from his parents, a strange look or two? So he bit his lip, shrugging a little. "I don't know. I juts honestly have no idea what they'll do. I mean. I've already given them a lot of trouble, you know?" Remus said, glancing over at Sirius. "I know, I know, it's not my fault, but -- the fact is, that I already have so many other things to worry about, and now this. I just. Feel bad, you know, putting more on their plate. I -- but I want to tell them," he finished lamely, looking away again.

[thatotherpotter]

Because it was normal not to want your parents disappointed with you. Because it was normal to want to be accepted by your family. Also because, had Sirius known what Remus was thinking, he probably would have punched his arm - they weren't discussing Sirius' family right now, they were talking about Remus', and Sirius' had nothing to do with the matter at all, so leave it out, and etc. "You'd think it wouldn't be a problem," he mused, bumping a bit against Remus shoulder and shrugging. "You're a brilliant kid, everything they could've asked for. I don't care about the-- other bits, those don't matter. They should-- take this shit in stride and roll with it." He didn't know what he was talking about. "Maybe you can show them an awesome report card before and they'll lap that up and forget about the gay part!"

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Yes, well, even if they weren't discussing it right now, that didn't make the fact of the matter any less true. It just wasn't on for Remus to sit here and whine about his problems when they were just -- minuscule next to Sirius's. But. He wrinkled his nose, shrugging. "Although I won't have an awesome report card this term, not since Potions will still be on it. I'll be lucky to get a Poor. I don't know. Dad's still upset that I'm dropping it, and with all of this -- especially since they've had me on their mind so much, what with trying to plan the trip, to give them something extra to worry about almost seems irresponsible."

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Sirius just got-- far too fixated with what people should do, The World According to Sirius. He had to bite his tongue to keep from snapping too much, some uncalled for rant about how parents shouldn't care about that sort, and. He could've said quite a lot, but instead he was squeezing Remus' hand, frowning a bit. "But you hate Potions, isn't that a better thing?" he asked with a wrinkled nose. "'Sides, that's the one thing. And you don't have that bad of marks in it, do you?" Maybe he did. Melted cauldrons everywhere. "And everything else'll be brilliant."

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Remus -- respected his parents. He didn't think they were perfect or knew everything, but they were both intelligent people who had gone through quite a bit more than he had. He wanted their approval, he wanted all those things. And -- this was just one more way he was completely different from them. He resisted rubbing an eye. "Mum thinks it's good, but Potions was always Dad's best subject. I don't know. And, yes, I really do have that bad of marks, Pads," he said lightly, squeezing his hand back. "It's just -- going to be a lot to get out, in such a short time." Remus paused. "And what if -- they don't let me see you?"

[thatotherpotter]

Sirius could get that, actually. The most of it. They weren't-- technically, genetically, his parents, but. He got that with the Potters, quite a bit, found himself striving to do right by them, worlds and worlds more than he had with his own parents. "Just cuz he's great doesn't mean you're gonna be," Sirius said, a bit stubbornly. "Oh. I didn't know you were, like. Nearly in the failing marks. Eep." Hn. He almost jumped a bit, at the last part, turned to look at Remus. "They wouldn't do that. Would they? It doesn't matter. I'd-- hop on Minerva and come tackle you. Right off. Or just don't tell them we're dating! That's--" That would be odd, hiding this from his parents, but. If it meant they could see each other. "That's fine, I mean. Maybe I could be the one great straight influence on you, yeah?"

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"Poor is failing, Pads. I'm -- probably definitely going to fail this term," Remus said wretchedly. He hated Potions. He tried so hard, he studied more than any of his other classes, but it just didn't work. Sometimes he suspected Slughorn of sabotaging him, but that was ridiculous. It was more just that Remus didn't get it and was completely hopeless. Next year would be so much better. "I don't -- if I tell them the truth, I don't want to be lying about something else." Remus shook his head. "I hate lying to them about anything, let alone something as important as -- as you, Sirius."

[thatotherpotter]

"Oh." Like Sirius kept track of grades. He'd never failed a class before, not even History. And Remus was so sodding smart, it was just-- how could he not get Potions? It was mixing random ingredients and. It came so easily to Sirius, it was a concept that just constantly boggled him. "Well, that's-- shouldn't that be a good thing you're dropping it? If it brings down your GPA? I don't know. Potions is dumb. You barely even need it." And then Remus was talking again, about lying and other things and. Sirius actually tightened a bit around his shoulders, couldn't explain why, just. He was almost embarrassed for Remus, right now, being-- what was he saying. Bugger. He didn't know. Fuck everything. "Right," he said, flatly, his free hand tightening on his bag strap, almost painfully. "Well. Like I said. I'd hop right the hell on Minerva and get over there. Or! Even! I'd have my Apparating license by then. I could be so sneaky."

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"Can we --," Remus suddenly said, stopping and looking over at Sirius. "I'm sorry, can we -- stop. And not talk about it. I just. I mean, I have to tell them, so it's no use stressing, and. Right. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have even brought it up, it's not a big deal." He knew he was flushing and was just glad they had walked away from most, if not all, of the other students. Still visible, sure, but at least no one could hear Remus Lupin be a complete girl about all this.

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"It is a big deal," Sirius corrected, firmly, came to a stop as well and turned to face Remus. For two very different blokes, they just-- very similar diversion tactics. 'It's not a big deal', honestly. "Coming out to your parents is-- big thing, okay, it's allowed to be a big thing, especially if you're not sure how they're gonna react, and. And yeah. That's it, that's all I wanted to say, we can talk about something else." He squeezed Remus' hand a little, peered around some before he brought it to his mouth and kissed it, firmly. "So."