occasionally a person looks at the infinite nature of the universe. Now i am unsure if i buy into the idea of the interconnected nature of the universe. personally, i see randomness. Not cruelty, not romantic idealism, but a simple unfeeling universe. a universe incapable and uninterested in emotion ( Read more... )

I do find myself deleting or not posting most of what i write in this journal. I guess i feel that things should not be written if they have no value. Most of the things that i abstain from are banal little things that i just have floating through my head ( Read more... )

I find it a bit odd that both my parents and my g/f's parents are looking for us to get engaged later this year ( Read more... )

I feel like i should post more ( Read more... )

300 is a great movie ( Read more... )

i feel we made progress ( Read more... )

Amanda posed to me a very odd and important question.
What does alex what to do in life?
I guess the main thing is that i want a job that pays well and i find personally challenging in some way.
Currently i am going towards the police force.
They let me have a gun.
Amanda is wondering why i am not a reporter.
Clark kent.
keep wondering

THe cat is comforting. I mean, it gets a little annoying to have this crap factory stink up my bathroom, but she is a very affectionate cat. she paws at my face, or lies down next to me. or sits on my lap when i play video games or watch scrubs ( Read more... )

I am getting to a point where i am beginning to wonder about the longevity of my relationship. I wonder if my gf actually has the character to last. I mean, i care about her, but she just keeps so closed off and distant from me. She also doesn't do any of the cute things she used to do when we first started dating ( Read more... )

my girlfriend doesn't want to see me. Perhaps for a week. Considering that i might be leaving for a month in san antonio, i am a little pissed.
That, and i really don't get how she is this upset with me. I am not this pissed unless i want to break up with the person.
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