I know I shouldn't be posting this.
At all.
But lately, as of VERY late; things have been getting better.
I'd like to say that Jesus Christ is actually answering my prayers. giving me the desires of my hart as I've been chanting non stop lately.
maybe this is why, infact I FEEL that this is SURE why things are going better for me.

No real details except ( Read more... )

Dear God,

How do all you old people manage to get so OLD, and KEEP LIVING?

Heck how do I manage to keep living while getting so old.

I mean don't get me wrong. I'm GLAD I'm still alive, I really am.

Especially after this year; which LITERALLY TRIED TO KILL ME.

(First my guts stopped working. Then my back was broken along with my NECK! I came so damn ( Read more... )

Well,  I got a job.
At Michael's.
As a florist, actually being able to SIT. And create things.
it was the BEST retail job I've had.
and I found something out.
The ONLY thing that kept me going in; was the fact that I was creating ART. That I was not only creating something with my hands, but DOING A R T.
I realized that even if I'm not making enough to ( Read more... )

Well, I was surprised to find that I had actually posted something recently.
I know I haven't been keeping up with this Blog/journal/ whatever it is. 
I never seem to keep up with these things, for whatever reason.

Previously
I nearly DIED this summer.
first my guts quick working entirely.
THEN the heat set in.
I nearly died from the heat alone.
Along with ( Read more... )

Problems in Plastic paradise

Okay, so I went to try my Purple dil-do today.

Now, as it turns out I'm still very much a virgin. Duh. So when I went to go and try this like, 3 inch round dil-do … no dice.

Obviously.

So instead I decided to start small.

Now just to let you know, lately I've shrunk. … CONSIDERABLY. To the point where now it's a ( Read more... )

Sex Toy basics from an A-Sexual

Okay so I got this stuff in the mail the other day. I finally broke down and ordered it. You can blame my sister for this. She said that every woman has this stuff. So of course wanting to be “normal” and just like “every woman out there” I decided to finally break down and research this area of sexuality.

I ( Read more... )

Suicide.
I'm one step away from it and I swear if I could do it, I already would have.
And for damn good reason too.
And to rub salt into the wound for good measure. I'm so damn lonely it's literally killing me. :-(!!!!!

And you know what bugs me the worst, when you start saying something about it in order to correct the situation; get help;  what ( Read more... )

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