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[t1lvllvly]

so if someone was mad at you or "over it", whatever the hell that means, wouldn't it make sense to just tell that person that they never want to speak to you again???? i have been running into this way too much lately and i am just fucking tired of it. so i will make this easy for everybody and just tell you, i am done tryin to get a hole of people

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[crys1282]

Timmy, I'm sorry I never get to talk to you. Don't be mad at me please, I just work way too much and have no time to myself anymore. I feel bad because it seems like when you do call I am going to bed or spending time with Jake. I'm sorry :( I love you!

[t1lvllvly]

oh, i am not really mad at you hun.... just having a rough past couple of days. tired of sitting around by myself everynight, because then i get wrapped up in my thoughts, and think about the life i used to have back in high school... i miss that life, but will never have anything like it again. its a fact of life. you are born... made miserable all of your life... hit puberty... go to college, where your life definitely hits rock bottom to the point you want to kill yourself... then you move out of the place where you hate, to a place where you don't know a soul, just to sit around and do absolutely nothing with your life but work. i love cali, it has been the first time i have been really happy since high school, but at the same time i am miserable, because i am all alone in a strange place. i might as well be living in mexico for how weird i feel around here right now....

[t1lvllvly]

and i also feel as though i have lost everyone in my life that has actually meant something to me over the past two years... it is all these shitty, fucked up thoughts and i refuse to go back on my meds....

[anonymous]

it will be fine once you meet new people out there. all you need is to start making new friends and you were always good at that over here. im still here, its just better if you call im never really on or around the computer for personal use any more. so if you ever want to just call me. and if im not to busy i would love to talk. and there are people that you use to care about that still care about you to. you just might now no it.

[t1lvllvly]

i know that... but i always had my base group of friends that i was invincible around when i was back there. i have no one out here at all. i have not a clue where to meet people around here. i moved once, and lost my old friends that i had, lost all the new friends i had, and ended up with the worst group of people doing some of the worst things imaginable. i don't want to go back there again. never...

and who is this?