I'm having a difficult time. The flinch reaction I have is beginning to get really, really severe. I'm finding it hard not to flinch at every casual contact, including my parents and friends ( Read more... )

Recently has been a bit of a turbulent time for me. I've been feeling low the last few months, but I managed to get even lower, and that hasn't been good ( Read more... )

Life, at the moment, has reached that kind of stage where I've been clinging on by my fingernails and now even that's slipped off. I really can't cope and despite everything, I still find it hard to get over my grandfather's death. Part of me has been wondering whether this is affecting me too much and I'm going on about it too much, but I have ( Read more... )

The last month has been hectic. A nightmare in some ways. It's been one of those periods where nothing I do is enough, and it's just left me feeling wrung out. I'm fairly sure that, during this kind of period, I've tried to push myself to do all the things I need to do, but the things I needed to do could never be done reasonably in the time I ( Read more... )

I haven't been doing very well these last two weeks. It's been a bit up and down. Well, not a bit, really, but a lot. I'm finding it much more of a roller-coaster at the moment with my emotions. So there are usually good moments and really bad moments all together, and they both seem to be quite extreme. For example, on Sunday, I went straight ( Read more... )

The second reason for me pushing myself stems from, as far as I can tell, a completely fucked up level of low self-esteem ( Read more... )

Yesterday was my thirtieth birthday, and it was a fun day. I spent it running to the toilet and vomiting. When I wasn't doing either of those, I was lying in bed trying to keep warm and having some really weird fever dreams. My mum also was sick with probably the same thing, but she managed to keep her food down and spent the day off work ( Read more... )

I'm having a bit of a mixed time at the moment. There's been a lot that's been going well, but as usual, it comes with its own set of bad that needs to be dealt with ( Read more... )

I've not been doing very well the last week or so. I've completely failed to manage my stress, and no matter how much I talk things out, the list of things I need to think through and communicate never really gets any smaller. I've also withdrawn into myself and I just can't seem to deal with people, which is not very good ( Read more... )

I had a bit of a nervous breakdown this week. All of this was caused by trying to change mobile phone. I've been stringing Three along until I can figure out whether I can get the Virgin deal. Unfortunately, I find myself feeling really bad about doing it. I'm too empathic. I know the lady in India, wherever she is, who is trying to sell me, ( Read more... )