"None of us choose where we will love"

I don't know what this is supposed to mean to you and I. You're not making this any easier and I really wish you would. That's all.

Holy Crap!! I finished reading The Magus for summer reading today. I threw it across the room. No shit, i knocked over a candlestick. I wanted to strangle the people who put the main character through so much shit to teach him a lesson, and ended up ruining is life. Yeah, he learned the lesson, but he was worse off than before. And all the lies ( Read more... )

I got feeling pretty down today. I miss him so much and there's been such an empty space since he left. And I just want to stop feeling that hole. I just want to put a band aid on it and be able to forget it. The problem is, when you rip off a band aid it hurts even more and bleeds again. I just don't get it. It's like I'm not meant to be ( Read more... )

OMG OMG OMG OMG!!! I'M GETTING A HORSE!! A HORSE OF MY OWN!! NO MORE LEASING!! NO ONE ELSE CAN RIDE MYYYYYYY HORSE!!! YAY!!! Sadly, it can't be Tommy. He's too unpredictable. So that sux.....big time. Oh yeah, I got my driver's liscence too. That's awesome, but not as awesome as the horse!

Yeah, i'm back from san diego. it was okay. i still wished i had gotten to stay home, w/e. this song is back from awhile ago, its from my "trying to find my inner music" phase of my life. i am relieved to say that this is NOT my music. it sums up my life ( Read more... )

Well, I just finished watching The Phantom of the Opera silent film. The original, based on Gaston Leroux's novel. The novel is nonfiction by the way. and they did better than ALW in some parts.....and in others.....worse. They had Erik escape from an island where he was prisoned as criminally insane. not true. He fled persia becaue they were ( Read more... )

Wow. I really am alone. I thought maybe I had one person, but I was wrong. Usually I don't name names, but seeing as how I have no one, I might as well. FUCK U HAYLIE!! U HAVE RUINED MY FUCKING LIFE! GOOD FRIENDS KEEP FUCKING SECRETS. DIDN'T U GET THE FUCKING MESSAGE IN THAT SONG! DON'T YOU EVER FUCKING TALK TO ME AGAIN! I HATE YOU AND HE DOES ( Read more... )

Wow. I never thought this would happen. I still don't believe it. Michael and I broke up. God. Oh God. I don't think I can do this. He's moving to NY, and he wanted to keep the relationship going, but long distance stuff never works. Oh God.

Well, it's Easter Sunday everyone, SO HAPPY EASTER!! CHRIST IS RISEN!!! okay, on another note: the horse show went......okay.....on saturday. he threw me in the flat class, WHICH WE WERE DOING SO WELL IN!! WE MADE IT TO THE SECOND GROUP AND HAD LIKE 30 SECONDS TO GO!! and he blew it, again. oh well, one look at those big brown eyes and u can't ( Read more... )

Yup, still not going back to school tomorrow. Not ready yet. I'm feeling better, but one little thing could push me right back to where I was on Wednesday. And I don't think that would be a good thing at school where I can easily.....slip away, shall we say.